Matt Connarton Unleashed 6-22-24 hour 1

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Contact us by email at wm n H nine by three at gmail dot com, or through our website at Wmmhradio dot org. It's nine o'clock. Yes, it's really no day five. I'm Anita mine who died. It's hope. I'm with the pot Ron got back. I'm going Huk Talkie, I've got down since he's got something on past down twenty twenty Massco and I felt like pot Man pop Man. They just sing the same for nigros. They washed down the product and murdered out. He broke down the coulture bit bunched with e goes like yay, saying we just want the power to Peopa Pizzo.

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But I left that for my butters. Could have taken no more. Had to recover and see. I want to knock you down. I want to see you in that position, but it's about how you actually that position. When you're knocked down, it says says, well you really are? Are you a part? Partit? To you? Fast forward to a life I never wanted. The coma came faster than they'll go to my stomach, the higher than you climbed in, the further that you plumbing. Y'all should know I'm canyon. So when it didn't keep on running, told God need a label and some funding.

He looked at me. Then you gotta teach him something taking and leave it. I'm never showing no grievous Mama said, dropped the liquor. I took control of my weekend. Still walk around with water print slapping there no reason, Mama asks me, why I say, I'm fighting my demons these dollars, I pledge your allegiance to the common man. Is this even? They see me rocking? No change? I tell them that it is so freeing. I know my wants and my needs. My don't was wise and believe me. You see it's never been easy.

Await you're playing Stevie. They robbing up pocket flyings issue. You see on TV. So bbing on the climb hope of time that could teach me? So bbing on the climb hope of time that could teach me to teach me. It's waving on the clim hope of time that could teach that. You're listening to w M and H get Commander, don't get Supreme, Lina Matzell coming, Welcome everybody. Here we go. It is that time again. Matt Connorton Unleashed and we are live from the studios of w m n H ninety five point three FM in Glorious Manchester, New Hampshire, on Canal Street.

Of course, you can also stream the show at wm Andhradio dot org, or go to my website Matt connorton dot com slash live for all your live streaming options, social media links, contact infos, show archives, et cetera, et cetera. Today is Saturday, June twenty second, twenty twenty four, and I am not alone Jod Morning Sunshine. Jenny is here at the news table. Yes, yes, so that the first song that we open up with today is called We actually played two from Hope the Rapper, but of course we're doing our our ten weeks of world radio premieres of new singles from our friend Hope the Rapper.

This is week two and that track was called Winner Circle. That's what we opened the show with. Great, great track, and then we I threw in a bonus Hope the Rapper song, The Climb, because I love it. I love the positivity of it. Great stuff and part of the reason why too, I decided to play an extra an extra one is our first guest today. This morning is a no show, so hopefully everything's all right, but yeah he is. He did not arrive so anyway, but coming up in the second hour, we have Mary Peters and Sue Smith from the Sister Witch Company you are going to be joining us.

And then in the third hour we've got a great band called the Two Towns Band. It is, so they will be with us here as well. But in the meantime it is Jenny and I and there's never a shortage of things to talk about ever. Also too, I see Melanie law Liberty from the Great State of Vermont is in the Facebook live chat and says she's still laughing about Apparently she finds my impressions to be very amusing. And I did one last night. I don't do the impressions here, of course I do them. I save that.

I save that for retro Spectrum Radio with Polly C. It's not fair, not fair. They were born from here. Yeah, you don't do them here, and that's not fair, right, well, I protest. Well, you know, here's the thing. And I don't know if I should talk about this publicly or not, but just a little bit of a peak behind the curtain. I did sign so when I re signed with poly C to be the co host on Retrospectrum Radio, because you know, every every ten years we signed a new contract, and so four years ago when we signed for another he signed me for another ten years to be his co host.

And part of the deal was, you know, because he pays me millions of dollars. But I yes, where's my part? Well, it's in it. It's all tied up in equity or something, but it's in a Swiss bank account that I can't I've already said too much. But yeah, so part of the deal is I can only do the impressions on his program. That's a that's just so retro spectrum Radio with Polly c exclusive of Yes, I know, I know the nerve. Uh yeah, Melanie says, it makes me sad. Jenny, thanks for bringing that up. Yes, that is true.

I did. I didn't bring it up. If you brought it up, you started it. Yes, yes, right, Melanie talking to you. But of course our retrospect from radio Friday nights for maybe eleven pm live here on WMNH ninety five point three FM. And of course if you miss it, you can go to wmnhradio dot org and get the archive of the show, download the podcast, listen anytime you like. Melanie says, all those secret uh, all those secret babies really are a financial drain. Well my goodness, oh no, anyway, very prolific isn't it.

Well, I don't know if that's quite the word, but I was going to say something else and it changed mid sentence. Also, Hans Hans Smith, of course from the band Sepsis, is also in the in the chat room. Welcome, Welcome, they will they're coming in soon. Yes, actually the next week it is. It's next week the ten am guest. Actually, Williams can definitely be coming in. I'm not sure how many others may be coming in or not. Yes, give us a load down on some of the big projects. They have some huge projects coming in.

And somebody's actually trying to call my cell phone right now. Isn't that crazy? Oh well, we don't answer when we are on air. No, we don't. And let's see. So And of course Swarmyfest is going to be in November and we'll be involved. We will be there, so excited about that. But we'll talk about that. Okay, we'll talk about that, I'm sure in more detail when they come in. Also, if you missed it last week here on the show, we had in the third hour. I've got a ton of great feedback on it. Green jelly or green jello.

Not sure exactly what to call them at this point we're here with us live in studio, and I have to say, and I said this on social media, that was probably and no disrespect any previous guests, of course, but that was probably the most fun I've ever had on this show in terms of segments. That was. That was amazing. So Bill mannspeaker, I'll tell you he can really talk. But if you missed it, of course, it is in the archive. You can go to wmhradio dot organ downloaded or my website Matt connorton dot com.

And we put it up on YouTube too. So what am I hearing anyway? I'm hearing something not in the headphones but from somewhere else. So uh yeah, so check that out. That was last Saturday. And it was cool too because you know, they didn't have to come in because they played in Manchester last night. They played I'm sorry not last night. Last Friday night, they played at the Shas Skiing and you know, normally when when a band is going to be on a radio show it's because they have something to promote in that local market that night.

But they had already played, they had played the previous night, but they wanted to come in anyway, Saturday, they were playing in Vermont, so they played at the Shasking here in Manchester on Friday night and then Saturday morning they came in here. So that was really cool too, because, like I said, usually usually you don't bother to do that, you know, but they were nice enough to come in anyway. And it wasn't just Bill. He brought many members of the band with him, so that was a lot of fun. Anyway, check it out.

And if you're confused, just because probably if you don't know the situation with the name, whether it's green Jelly or green Jello, if you don't know, because it didn't really get explained during our conversation on the show. But green Jello is what the name of the band was originally, and they were I don't know if they were actually sued or if they were threatened with a lawsuit, but green Jelly they changed their name to green Jelly because the jell O Company or whoever it is that makes jello either threatened to sue them or actually sued them, so they had to change their name to green Jello, I'm sorry, from green Jello to green Jelly.

They could no longer have Jello in their name. But the problem. The problem there is that I guess it's been a long time, so at this point, you know, they can kind of still get away with calling themselves green Jello because they almost seem to prefer to be called green Jello to green Jelly. But uh, and that did that did seem to occur because Bill kept referring to the band as green Jello, And that's why I asked him, are you legally allowed to call yourselves green Jello? And he said, it kind of doesn't matter at this point.

So so that was the the confusion over the name. But uh, yeah, so that was last week, so check that out, uh if you uh, if you missed it. It was a lot of fun, Like I said, a lot of very positive feedback on the uh on that let's see uh six O three two five O six o seven. The studio line is open if you'd like to join us this morning six O three two five oh six oh seven. Uh. You can also text us at six one seven nine one seven four four seven six. I'm on social media at Matt Connorton. You can email me Matt at Mattconnorton dot com.

And uh, we do have our guest has joined us. Welcome. Hello, how's it going? Hey? How do you say you're I don't know how to pronounce your name. It's uh a a jousel Okay, I wasn sure A joseld Rebel is here. Welcome and uh we do have a few of your tracks here. Uh, why don't we play something and then we'll talk for a bit? What do you You sent us three and I made radio edits of of all three of them. Uh. So we do have options. But what would be a good one to open with and then we'll come back and talk about it is either let me done or what made me?

What? Maybe? Is the one I did for my son. It's like a tribute song for them. Oh, let's play that one first and then we can Uh, we can talk about that, okay, okay, So this is what made me? It doesn't roll off my tie a lot of people. I'll get it though, I'll get it all right here. It is, this is This is called what made me? Maybe? Don't cry, baby, don't cry no more. I'm so sorry that I left you standing in the colode outside. I hope you know I'm yours. Your mind, it's ju it's t maybe. I can't even sleep it out you.

I cannot replace this, No one can replace you. I'm so you go crazy. I remember when I was just standing her in hardcore? What I feel cold? I don't remember when I had no money. You know, I am not sure that the cry Oh, I had them enough for the best. Wiping my tears, I can be like the rest deep down inside of the pressed. I remember them coming up with lash because of my son. I was hurting. Yeah, I ain't want to live no more, trying to battle all my demons and lost myself. I put my whole family do paint.

I know that they love me, but I push them away. But I don't know what what's wrong with me? Demons they calling me? All that's my sunny was part of me? Can say goodbye? What's han me? I left my head out living with grand no and I don't know what's wrong with me? Demons they calling me? All that's my sunny was part of me? Can say goodbody's hat me? I left my head out. I'm living a grand now, y'all. Y'all, I had no way to tell people that my life isn't safe. I wanted to win my own life for a better way.

I put my pain in every box music's might escape. I sat all the lowest in praying for better days, but God blessed me with three more sons. I feel like I'm never running front of pain right now I know and if you know right now, because right now I'm a better man. Back then we understand. Because right now you know what God, please don't understand right now why you have to go take them away and all this paind that I haven't done right now. I have to live through the worst all again. But right now I am stronger to see him longer.

That's my little Julian. I feel like a fool again. I ain't get to see him grow up, turn to a big man. I feel like you hate me. God, Please don't let me fall again. I feel like you hey me, be crazy. You took too for my babies, my heart ist faverg and whatever I supposed. Right now, I think I need saying and why you am mighty on on. I lost to all my babies, and I know that it's impossible, but I dream of miracles to give up. I was right back to me right and Moms that spirit shore for the game. I wish I cant home my boys a game.

Yeah, baby, don't cry, Baby, don't cry no more. I'm so sorry that I left you standing in the colude outside. I hope you know, muse your mind. It's you, baby. I can't even sleep it on you. I cannot replace this, No one can replace you. That is a Josel Am I saying it right, a Josel the Rebel here on Matt connorson Unleashed on this Saturday morning. Uh, he's here with Jenny and I and the track is called What Made Me, And that is the as we were discussing off air. That is the first time that's been played on the radio.

So World Radio premiere. So we're very uh, very happy to play that. And that is you were saying too it Uh, that song has kind of been blown up for you. You've been getting a lot of a lot of attention with that. Yeah, I've been getting a lot of attention with that. Done like competition in Holy Oak, mass it was, and uh, I guess the competition was for to be able to go down to Atlantic Records. I battled like thirty nine other artists. When I went down there, I showcased another song and then I did that song and I pulled a lot of heart strings and ended up winning Yeah, Crass.

And then the Thursday after that, I ended up going down to Atlantic Records talked to Bailey the inn R from Atlantic Records. Oh wow, that was the first song I played for her too, and she liked it. Oh no kidding, put her like I mean, she told me to bring like seven songs and I bring like eleven just in case, like seventeen songs just in case, and I ended up playing eleven for her. She wanted to keep listening to more songs. Oh no kidding, that's excellent. So it's really it was actually really good.

Good experience too. This is my first time going to New York City. Yeah, first time experiencing all the traffic and yeah, it was crazy. Do you have to get in the cab? No, I actually drove down there. I have to be sixty five dollars for a park ye crazy man, four hours, it's sixty five dollars for parking. And then yeah, I don't know. I think, actually you're probably better off that way. Last time I was there and I have to take a taxi, I thought I was gonna die. I'd rather take a taxi. Yeah, I don't take a taxi were you were you nervous, dude?

Yeah, that's a big deal. Or if you have to go over the tappan Zee Bridge, what is it the Giant bridge? Uh, the George Washington Bridge. I think, Oh, I don't know. I think they renamed I think they call it. I think, yeah, I think they did rename it. I think they did rename it. Yeah, it's a scary bridge. Yeah. So, uh, the song we should talk about is this song is very personal to you, very personal? Yes, yeah, we should. We should talk about it. I mean it's a it's a heavy subject obviously, but yeah, we should.

We should talk about this first. Yeah. So in twenty eighteen, I had my firstborn son. His name is Jaden. He lasted about two months. He ended up passing away from SIDS. Yeah, And for anyone who doesn't know, SIDS is a sudden infant death syndrome, also often referred to as crib death. And I believe it's kind of a mystery, right that. Yeah, they still don't know. Yeah, they still don't know. Nobody really knows why it happens. Yeah. Oh that's horrible. So two months, two months, Yeah, two months he made it.

He passed away in October October twelfth. It was okay, so he's born August eighth, August seventh, and then he passed away October twelfth. Wow. And that's where it really put me into a dark place, dark hole, no doubt. That's the reason why I started rapping making music. Yeah, because before I was like making music and it wasn't wasn't anything serious. Yeah, my dad when like put me in the studio and all that stuff. When I was like thirteen, it used to be a DJ and my mom used to listen to like Spanish music and always dancing and doing all that stuff.

But yeah, so I got through that.

It was in my dark place started making music. I made a couple of songs about my son's that was like at first there were like anger anger songs. Yeah, and then I finally came to a compromise and made this song. I was like really stuck on it. Yeah. I got the first half. So the first half of that song is about my son Jayden, and then I got stuck. So that part where it goes, God, please don't understand right now, why'd you have to go take him away? So that's that part is where I got stuck. And that song, and then literally right after that, my fourth son that I was born.

His name is Julian. He made it about four months twenty days and he passed away from six too as well. Oh my god. So right there, I was able to finish the song. I know that's not really good circumstances, but I was able to finish the song that way. Yeah, making a song, sent it out to all my people, sent it all my friends and they were like, Yo, that song is crazy, dude. Yeah, uh yeah, and stuff like that. Yeah, you know, I just went and finished the song, and so I kind of it's like a tribute song for them, like, you know, I mean, they're not alive here, but they're alive in my music.

Yeah. Yeah, And I'm happy to go around in the world to like perform that song. Yeah. I mean it comes up on the show a lot, you know, conversations about taking traumatic events and you know, some of the horrible things that happen and trying to create art with it. And not only because not only does it help you to work through it, it's it's kind of like a therapy right when you do that, but also too, you know, it might help others who have gone through similar things. And I don't know any of the numbers on SIDS, but I know it's I've known people who it's happened to, and it's I don't have any children, but I can only imagine how horrible that is to experience that you have other kids.

Yes, I have two middle children. Okay. Jamil was my rainbow baby, who was right after my firstborn. Yeah, so I mean he'd really get to love that we were supposed to give him. Yeah right now, he's good. Yeah yeah. And then I had my son Elijah. Yeah yeah, and my son Jamil is about to be four on the twenty fourth. And then my son Elijah's team. Oh wow, okay, very good, very good. You mentioned too your dad. Is your dad a musician? Oh he's a DJ. Yeah yeah, yeah. He used to call them DJ old school three G Yeah, but yeah, goes by mister old school now.

Yeah, he's just like local local DJ. Yeah. Yeah, he used to go to Rhoe Island DJ down there. It's good old school DJ plays all the old school jams, all that stuff. Does he still do it? Yeah? He's handicapped now from diabetes, oh wowing both legs, but he's still had had another gig, I think it was the eighth, June eighth, and he went down there. I said it was good. Yeah, put all the music for them, you know, handicap and all. He still does. He still works on cars, he still does it. Good for him.

Yeah, yeah, that's awesome, good for him. So is that where your your interest in music started? Yeah? When I was about thirteen, he'd always tried to get me down to the basement because you are all his friends down there DJing, and he would do some recording stuff like that, and I'd go down there and watch and he'd like, Yo, son, good on your turn. I'm not doing that. I don't rap, bro like I don't rap. Yeah, And then I don't know. Eventually I caved. Yeah, and I did like a cover song for like for te Pain I'm sprung, Oh no kidd like a cover song, and he was like, see, I told you could do it.

Yeah. And ever since then, I'd started like making the little rhymes on my phone and stuff like that and nice, but it never got serious. It never got serious like that. Yeah. It wasn't until five years ago until I started making music seriously. Yeah. Yeah, And now you have you done shows with Hope the rapper. How do you guys know each other. I've done Hope since high school. Oh no, kidding, yeah, oh wow, since high school. Oh cool. I have done shows with him where he's on a different set. He's has his own sets.

Yeahff like that. Yeah, but yeah, he's a really good musician. Shout out to George. You know what I mean, he's good. Yeah, we actually have a song coming together. Oh you do a song? Yeah, song. I just gotta find the time actually going down to LA to do a tour. Oh yeah, it's a for day tour from the twenty six to the thirtieth BT week and we're doing that excellent. Well you know you can come when you're ready to radio release that. Yes, yes, we love the world. We love doing the World premieres here.

Yeah, we're doing uh, as you're probably aware. We open today with Winter Circle, his newest single. Because I haven't heard that yet. Yeah, yeah, we'll play it again to UH at the end of the hour. But yeah, because we're doing uh. You know, he's releasing ten ten new singles each week and we're doing a they're already they're already on the streaming services by the time we plan but we we're doing the world radio premieres of each one each week, so yeah, we really are big. Oh yeah, yeah, no, we love that.

And and he's he's amazing. We had a great conversation when he was here. And I really like the positivity of his music. Yeah, he has really good positivity in his music. He keeps her like like less swears and stuff'shy like. His music keeps you like, no swears and stuff like. I kind of keep it like you know, yeah, I'm just me on it, you know what I mean. Yeah, it took me a few minutes to do those radio and yeah, let me let me down and let me down. Yeah, there's a lot of nwords in there, but yeah, that was what he said, a lot of nwords on there, you know what I mean?

On be an original rappropos and just me that's normally the way I talk all the time. Took Yeah, it took me a few No, I don't mind, No, I don't mind. But you now have radio in it. It was worth it. Yeah, Yeah I can send those Yeah yeah, yeah, absolutely, Well let's let's play another one. What should we uh? Let me down? It's actually my biggest hit on oh on Spotify. I think it's almost at one hundred K streams. Oh okay, it's like ninety nine eight hundred something. I don't know. I actually haven't checked today.

I haven't checked today. It might be one hundred, might be that. If not, we'll get it over the top, right, Yeah, yeah, that's awesome. Yeah all right, let's while you're looking that up, we'll go and play this. So this is uh, this is al said it right, you did a rebel and uh, and this is called uh, this is called let me down. Check it out,

ye staying with doll smoke. I want him give me, no, I will him give me now. I stay by my dog lett again. I don't come around because Sun bade me way. You have to let me down now. I'm not then balk against you're thinking numb a clown thatt. You is my home. And you know what I could tell let me singing me chop a hit him? Now we beating pull up on me, you know, twigging. You have to let me down. That's why I don't come around, because get motivated. I think can be complicated. Most can say they don't shoot what they're saying.

It's heart. I trust when you're on circle betrayed. You know they get letting them traps keep by the night. You know they get letting wing them traps keep by the night. Now, Monro, I ain't never coming home. Get the back. I gotta call. I tell you wad let me alone. Why are you blowing on my phone? Why are you blowing on my phone? You're coming at me? You watch your tone. You're coming at me. You watch your tongue. Don't you say you feel path me? Look out what you starting? I'm gonna go over at it.

Get started in my problem. Why y'all going down on me? I guess I gotta go hard and knows tragedy. Just hit them spinning magic, I got it. I won't hit them get me now. I stay by my dog and let it in this swie. Don't come around cause ups feding me while you have to let me down. Now, I'm loving fun because you're thinking number clown got you was my home and you know what peved it? I could tell lem me seeking to me chop to hit him. Now we're beating pull up on me. You know, twig, you have to let me down.

That's why I don't come around. I don't know what happened at people around me, or why they keep switching and choosing the side. I always been true to myself. Being true to myself, it got me to lose my mind. Homies been faking, they moving too funny. I don't know love me that you're trying to play me in. I don't know why I'm going so crazy. I don't have the time, like why, why why are you acting fake? God at time? Catch me Bama lonely while I stay my grind. I'm stuck in my head from losing some friends, been dealing with pain, and I hope that it is if I never pop, won't see me again.

It goes in the shadow, can see you through a line, and I don't know why drive to my head Sometimes with searching for truth, the luck of his life can switch up the past because I'm across tying, can switch up the pace because I want my grind, because I want my grind now, I don't have the time. No, no, no, get me, no, I stay by my dolling in me. That's why I don't come around, just fading me. Why you have to let me down now? I'm looking fall against it? Why you were thinking I'm gonna cown you was my home and you know what, I could tell the game chop and hit him.

Now we beating pull up on me, you know, twigging. You have to let me down. That's why I don't come around me. Step on, no, step on, that is let me down. That is a jous the rebel. I'm getting confident with that. Yeah yeah, yeah, that was really good, better than most people. The most people. Where does the name come from? By the way, Actually my dad gave me that name. My dad name my uncle tom Oh do kidding me? Yeah? Oh cool. My uncle told me to mess around like like just you know, a j a ji a joos and then like door like they just start calling me that and I'm like, you know what I mean.

And then when I was trying to make her raping, that's what you want to make your wrapping, I don't know as we already call you that, and it's like all right, it's like, ye, it's unique. Nobody has that, so I guess perfect. I mean, yeah, yeah, yeah, that's awesome. Uh yeah, uh he's here with us of course live in studio on this Saturday morning, and which so you were looking up. Uh what made me is is that the one that's almost two hundred thousand. Let Me Down, Let Me Down is okay, yeah, I just released uh what made me?

Oh? Okay, yeah, so let Me Down, and that'll be crossing that that barrier today probably one hundred k. Go listen to it on Spotify now, not right now, in a little bit. Yeah, yeah, jack that number up. Let's get him over the top today. Yeah yeah. Yeah. We were kind of talking off air about how hard that is and and how Spotify now is like they're not they're not not paying people for any songs under a thousand. Yeah, yeah, which I don't agree with that. A lot of people are complaining about it. But the only thing is it's I mean, you're talking about pennies.

I don't care. They pay like fraction of a penny. I don't care. Yeah, well they don't pay enough number one, But I don't care. It's still your song, it's still your revenue that that you're making for them, and they're keeping it whatever, penny, quarter, a penny whatever, they're keeping it. Yeah, and they're ripping off artists by going, oh, you have to have this minimum of a thousand plays, and nobody gets paid except us until then no, I think it's a ripoff. I think it's doing artists wrong. I'm really not.

I'm not a fan of Spotify because of these things. Well, Apple Music's like fraction of a pennies too. Yeah, it's ridiculous. The one that pays the most is title. Title pays a penny for stream and it doesn't seem like much, but that's it's a lot more than the zero points zero zero three, right, Spotify pays and then apples zero points there's zero eight Yeah, yeah, I mean it's so hard for artists to make money these I think part of why people are getting back into records even I've seen they said last year records so outsold.

Really, I wonder how it compares and in regards to streaming though, I mean, I think artists make more on an album than they do on streaming any day of the week. It's really you You're you're making most of your money off of your merchandise. Yeah, yeah, I have a merchan pasee too. Yeah. Yeah, it's called Tea Spring. Oh yeah, I'm familiar with that. Yeah, I use it's like digital right now. Yeah. I made it because you know, I figured I get something out there right right. I mean I got at a couple of tests sweatshirts and stuff like that.

Oh cool, wear them to the shows people, So where do you get those from? I show website and stuff like that. Excellent? Excellent. You were talking too often about when you do what made me live and what goes into that. Oh, because in that it's a good stage performance. Uh. I have these two canvases of my two boys, and I have either my fiancee and my sister hold hold one of them on each side. Yeah, and then you know, every time I performed the song, they have a visual of my of my son. So that makes the performance even even better.

And people are just quiet and they're focused. Yeah, like everybody in the room is everybody's tensions on me. Like nobody's talking to each other. It's like people's cameras are out, people's flash lights are out. Right. I mean, I just did a show in New York. Every show I go to, I do that song. Yeah. I don't like to do the same venue. I don't like to do the same venue and do the same song, So I do different songs if it's the same venue. Yeah. But I just recently did a show, so I won the show in Holyoak, went down to Atlantic Records, did that, and then I went down to Rhode Island.

I did another competition, another battling another forty or another thirty nine artists. I was actually the first set on Rhode Island is where I was born and raised when I was nine years old. Yeah, I came out here. So when I went to Rhode Island, I had like so many people that showed up, Like, so, I had like at least thirty people that showed up. Yeah, so the venue only held like seventy something people. Oh really, I had thirty of them. Yeah. So the competition was for five hundred dollars and then whoever bring the most people got another one hundred, two hundred dollars.

So I went there. You know. I did two other songs that did let me down, and I did another song called Bombshell It's not ready, It's not ready for radio. Yeah, and then I did what made Me. I always closed with that song. Yeah song, it's like my song I'm originally there to do. I'm originally there to do that. I'm out here for my sons. I wouldn't be out here wait if it wasn't for them. It wouldn't be rapping. Yeah, out here doing that and it's got me to many places. Yeah, I mean I'm heading to LA.

I just went to New York opened for Connie Diamond. The performance out there. I won the five hundred dollars, actually went seven hundred dollars. And that's what keeps opening more opportunities every time I win these competitions, more people. He asked me, Yo, you want to come. I was supposed to go do the Three Headed Goat with Charlie Clips. I think George is doing that too, but I'm not gonna be able to make that. Oh he wanted to do a new song that we're doing. Yeah, I just haven't found the time to get my song recorded yet.

Oh okay, I've been really busy with LA stuff. My first time going to l Away, Yeah, living five days. Yeah, like another world. I hear. It's like walking into another world. Yeah, and it's going to be hot. Yeah. I'm taking my first flight, my first time taking an airplane really. Yeah, first time ever born an airplane or anything. So I'm nervous about that too, first time being away from everybody. I'm not gonna have anybody I know out there. My man You've got everybody you know right in your hand.

I know, but it's just it's different. Especially it's gonna be my first time performing that song without none of my regular people that usually show up to my shows. So I'm gonna be doing these these songs in front of strangers, you know what I mean. Yeah, that's what makes me. It's making me more nervous too as well. Yeah, ros to you. That takes a lot to the courage is to get on a plane I have cross the country. I'm happy that I have one person with me, at least that I know, my manager, you know what I mean.

I have one person that's coming with me. You'll make new friends while you're out there. You'll come home with more than you had. Yeah, that's everybody keeps saying. Rex Shattuck is in the Facebook live chat. Hello, that's a new name in there, Shattuck. Yeah, that's my fiance. Are there? Oh I misread that back, Shaduck. I'm sorry, Yes, very good, very good. By the way, where do you record? I recorded sound Shuttle. It's in Boxford, Mass seven. Engineers. Name is Nikki six. Ever since I linked up with him, it's been really good.

He knows my sound. Now like I get there, what I do is I record at my house. I get to memorized, you know. I mean I already have it, don what I want for autotune or yeah, you know, so you kind of make a demo. Yeah. So when I get there, it's already in my head. I'm able to do two three songs in a two hour time span. Oh really saying for ye last time I did four songs in a two hour session. Wow. I mean I get there, get the songs according and I just let the engineer do his work. Yeah, he already knows my sound and then the only thing he has to mess away is my features.

You know what I mean feature songs. I do have a solo album coming out pretty soon, but I have a feature album coming out hopefully when I come back from LA and trying to get that situated. Now for those who don't know, can you explain what that is when you talk about features? Oh, features just another presson on another artist on your song. So the feature album is people that's part of my group. So I have another one with good bars and Hope the rapper. We gotta get those songs recorded in order for me to drop my album because I wanted to get them on there.

Ye. So that song that me and Hope we're doing, that's going on there, and then the song with Me and Good Bars is going on there. Excellent, I think, oh yeah, yeah, he's been on the show. Well he actually he was on a couple times when he was still in Sepsos. Yeah yeah, I think he left steps Yeah he did. Yeah. Yeah, and then he's coming on soon, right. I think we have him in July. I think it's July. Double check the calendar. I'm looking yeah, I'm looking forward to to uh talking to him. He will be here on July sixth, Yeah, because than studio, because when he was here with Sepsist obviously you know, they were talking about band stuff.

But I'm but I'm also looking really looking forward to talking to him just because he's he works with so many people. Yeah, he's also good rappers too. Yeah yeah, good rappers too. Uh. He actually kind of paved the way when it goes to studios, and I still go to his studio A long time ago. Actually did my first music video, the songs called now you Know Okay. Yeah, it was the first music video I did. Me and Good Bars in there. He recorded it, he edited all that stuff. Is is that on YouTube? That's on YouTube?

Yes, it's an old one, but yeah, people still go like, I got to know a lot of kids. They're going there and they're like, yeah, they were singing. Now you know that song is old, excellent sing that song. Oh that's good though, I mean it's a timeless that's that's really good. So now the what's his name again? The producer that you work with ni Okay? Does he spell like the guy from Ali Crue Nikki six? Uh? Well, anyway, I assume it's not the same guy. But no, but it sounds like so is So he doesn't just engineer, he actually produces.

He produces. Yeah, he plays like the actual instruments, and he doesn't do the beats I haven't gotten. I have gotten two beats from him, but I haven't used him yet. I got the full exclusive rights from him. I'm just wait. I'm trying to come up with the perfect song for those beats. But usually, like YouTube beats, I go buy them, you know, I'll go. I don't know they for some reason my whatever I'm thinking. So a beat pops up and I'm just like, oh, I like that one. Yeah, I don't even have to really look for beats because I feel like my phone is always reading what I'm thinking.

Yeah, I go on there and I go to YouTube and like the first couple of beats, I look at it and like, like those ones, let's go go on their beat stars and I'll just pay for the pay for the beat. That's usually how more of a alotic artists like to gravitated towards a lot of way of listening to, like a bogie with the hoodie pology is my favorite artists. I used to listen to some old schoo rappers like uh Lil Wayne and you know jay Z and all that stuff. Yeah, not really a big fan of the school of the old school wave.

Dad growing up was like hard on the fifty cent, oh on fifty So I kind of like, you know what I mean, that's music. Ah, Whenever I think of fifty cent, uh, this is a little bit of a side street. But whenever I think of a fifty cent I think of the first time I ever heard in the club and I was and I was in the car and I heard it, and the first time I heard it, I really really liked it. I thought, Wow, it's really catchy. It was gonna be a huge hit. And literally I think it was the second or third time I heard it, I was like, I really don't like this.

I was, I was, I was just over it's so fast. I don't know. That's just the first thing I ever think that I think of. I think of his the feud that he had with Jerrule, which was hilarious. Yeah, like a song by jewelryl in New York, the song goes Hard

actually made another song. I've cover a couple of songs that are that are unfinished for my solo album. I kind of I guess Swagger jacked a little bit of of his flow, you know what I mean? Yeah, you come from New York. I kind of like stole a little bit of that, but I put it in my own. Yeah. Yeah, I'm just waiting to get that out. Do you have any kind of an et a on the solo album? Do you know what I have? This feature album? I'm supposed it's supposed to have already been out. Oh, the feature albums coming first.

Feature albums comes first, which is why when I come back from l A, my first priority is getting the photo shoot done and then getting those songs recorded with mister good Bars and hope the rapper should be all set, Yeah, cool, should be all set and then it's gonna I should be up by hopefully August. No see, no, I don't know, probably like next month. The tracks that we're hearing today, are these not the future album but the solo album? Are these? Let Me Down? Let Me Down's going on there? Yes's going on there and then reminiscing and what made me He's gonna go on my soulout?

Okay, cool, cool, excellent, excellent. Are you doing any shows? Do you have any shows around here in the area coming up? Or you got other stuff you're focused on? I know, but the La one I have a show the twenty seventh and the twenty ninth that are a part of Mia snows tour that she's doing. I'm actually going with Scott Morris. He's doing that the show I won in Rude Island. He's doing that. Asked me, he goes, you know you called him? He goes, so, y'all like your music. He's like, have you ever performed out of New England?

Yeah? And I was like, no, I've just done like mass different parts of masks for Island stuff like that. Yeah, and he's like, you know, he's like, what you do on coming on to me to LA And I was sick. He's like, yeah, everything's gonna be up out of pocket because you're not sound artist yet, so everything's out of pocket. Everything's paid to play. Yeah, seems to know if you can afford. I was like, yeah, I got you. Yeah, you know. Then that's how we came to that. So four days nice for days. This is awesome for you.

I'm really excited for seven. Twenty seventh. I'm doing a show and I think it's North Hollywood, okay, and then it's twenty ninth. I have another one. But in between this podcast and stuff like that. Yeah yeah, yeah, you got to make the most of the trip, right Yeah. Well yeah, I'm just following. He's leading the way I'm following. Yeah. No, that's cool. It's cool that And I feel like, I don't know, I've always felt like I see it a little bit more in hip hop that I mean, you see it in all genres, but mentorship is so important when there's when there's people who see something in you, who are willing to help you, you know, instead of just saying you know, Oh, this guy's got all this talent, but I'm just gonna let him swims like about Scott Morris, like he just took me on.

He asked me what I can afford. I told him I can afford, and just like all right, boom, send me all the paperwork. Yeah, I think I need to fill out everything seemed legit. Yeah, yeah, wow, that's good. I had to book my flight. I thought we were driving down there, honest, So oh really a day day? It was like a one day, twenty four hours. I was like, wow, it's a long drive. And then if I figured out when you sent me the the forms, oh take a flight? Yeah. Yeah, So you've never flown, never flown? Are you're flying out of Manchester or Boston?

Yeats? I can give you some tips. I fly a lot, you do too, I've been I was always asking around. I was asking around, like I was asking my bosses. I was asking a lot of people that's flown. Couldn't really give me anything. They said, just make sure you're there early. Yeah. I think I'm like three hours or three weeks away from my next trip something like that. Minnesota. Oh okay, I've never been there either. Yeah. The important thing is to get there, you know, get to the airport early, just to be super organiz early.

It needs to be like, what a couple hours. Yeah, I'd get there at least two hours early. Yeah. I have no idea where the terminals are. Nothing like, yeah, will chat, I'll help you. Because to me, that's the stressful part about flying is dealing Like it's not the being in the big metal tube twenty thousand feet in the air of that part so easy. It's it's just dealing with the airport past security all right stuff. That's where the stress is, right in my opinion. Yeah, I had to figure out what size the bag is you can bring so oh yeah, I paid for a check bag.

Then I figured out that the the carry on bag was like it's supposed to be twenty two inches, and I was like, I could have fit everything in there. Oh, but I already paid for the check bag. So I got the big luggage. Yeah, it's going to pack my stuff? Yeah yeah, get my clothes ready. I know they were going to LA So I got to watch out for colors down there, yep. I did not know that. Yeah, especially in the rap game, you got to just watch out for your colors out there, especially in no red and blue.

That's where like bloods and crips originated from it. Like, don't wear anything that makes sense, Like you know, you don't want to go out there wearing I mean, my favorite color is blue. I have outfits that are blue and red. But yeah, not going to bring those colors down there. That makes me wear like more neutral colors, you know what I mean, like purple yellow, And that never would have occurred to me, but that totally makes sense. Yeah, I don't want anybody taking me Yeah, certain type of way, you know what I mean, start trouble, Yeah, exactly down the start trouble.

No, that's not something you need. No. Can you imagine someone in the crowd like, oh, this guy's I'm not ready for all that. Noight here for five days, hoping that it opens up a lot more opportunities. Yeah,

I can't. I can't imagine what it's like to lose a child. That's not something that I can imagine. But I am absolutely amazed by you and your ability to have taken this tragedy that actually incited this mass creativity inside of you that's just coming out of you in such a positive energy. It's just really commendable. It really is. His birthday is coming up next month, No, no kidding, bul six, Yeah, birthday's going to be one years old. Wow. So yeah, this past month, you know, I've been a little bit depressed.

But yeah, it's like some you know, some days, I'm like I don't even want to go to LA you know what I mean? Yeah, I already poked my flight, you know what I mean? Yeah, Yeah, yeah, already booked my flight. Some days I just want to be like I don't want to make music. Yeah I'm still there. Yeah, and what I gotta do, Yeah, still being a father to my kids. Yeah, I mean from there, there's probably a lot of fathers out there that y'all help them. Yeah. Yeah that the song did blow up really fast. Yeah, it's actually that's where I'm going to l A, you know what I mean?

Yeah, So yeah, im down there. I want to go perform that song down there. I talked to some people down there, like uh, and they were like they didn't even know what SIDS was really Yeah, I didn't even know what. I'm like, Oh, it's his I'm like, it's Sudden Infant death intrum. It's like the baby's brain is pretty much tells them to stop breathing or Yeah, they say it can happen on your on on the baby's stomach or the baby's back, but it happened on both. So my firstborn was on the stomach, my my and my son Julian was on his back.

So yeah, Jenny was looking up up numbers. Rely, any out of one hundred thousand older and born thirty eight point four will die from said, there's roughly twenty five hundred babies that die every year from sudden infant death syndrome. And these numbers are coming from March of twenty twenty three, So, I mean, it is rare, but you know, there's there's enough of a number there that you know, but the theory is still out. We haven't we haven't pinpointed it down. Nobody knows. They'll find My money's on something genetic that maybe haven't pinpointed yet.

Yeah, maybe they'll when they do the gene testing on it, maybe they could find something. Yeah, yeah there's a gene or something, because it did happen to us twice, so right right, yeah, maybe they'll find something, could be something there. But yeah, so statistically it's rare, but it's more common than than most people realize. Yeah, twenty five hundred children dying a year is a is a decent number. Yeah, yeah, and they just don't know why yet. It's just it's all it's been a medical mystery. Ye that just hasn't been unraveled yet.

Hopefully, as science grows and genetic and all that kind of thing happens, you know, we'll find a reason be able to stop it. What you're doing is phenomenal because you are raising awareness, you are bringing attention to it. But next year, I wanted to do like a sid's awareness tour free, you know what I mean. That's a great idea. Wanted to do like, you know, free tour, you know what I mean. I actually have my mom's ex fiance, Uh he's he's the one that printed up like the thing everything for that and I actually really liked it when he printed that up for me, and I was like, yeah, that actually sounds really good, like, you know, for SIDS awareness.

And that's good. You know, a free tour. Don't get get nobody has to pay nothing, you know what I mean, go there, set up the venues. But I just got to make a couple more songs. Yeah, that sounds amazing. You'll definitely have to come back and tell our audience about it, yeah, I mean, and then I just always gonna have my team open up for me do whatever, you know, PG songs. You know, I hope the rapper will be good Yeah yeah, looking like mean and trying to do like shows, I mean, and like a local tour you know, I mean not now you wear it's too far.

Yeah. Yeah, so that everybody can make it, and everybody works, everybody has their own schedules. So we're gonna just get that situated. Yeap. You might even be able to get the March of Dimes involved. Oh yeah, good call possibility. Yep, yeah, that makes sense. That makes sense. Well we are we are approaching the top of the hour. I want to make sure we get one more of your your tracks and uh so we're what's the one we didn't play? Reminiscent? Reminiscent? Yeah, so that's a song. It was about when my mom was in her dark days.

My mom was in her dark days. It's the beginning of it, and then it's about like New Hampshire and how people like did you dirty people? Did me dirty? Happened forever. That's what let Me Down was about. Okay, Yeah, I kind of got that from the lyrics. Yeah yeah, And and I think there's people that was closest to my circle that let me down, you know what I mean. Yeah, yeah, I'm just tired of that. Very relatable. We we certainly all had that. We certainly all have had that happen. Yeah, trying to make sure I have it here.

So what we'll do is, yeah, we'll play that and then uh after that too, I'm gonna I'm gonna play again the Winter Circle, the brand new track from Hope the Rapper as we continue our ten weeks of world radio premieres of Hope the Rapper singles, which we're very happy about. Love his stuff and love what you're doing. Man, this is great, This is great. A Jusel the Rebel. What should people know about how to find you online? Uh? You'll find me on everything. We should spell a j U s D E L d A R E b E L and you can find me on every platform.

And please go to Spotify. Spotify. We got to get that over a hundred thousand, yeah, yeah, those to one hundred k. Almost there. Yeah, I bet it happens today. Hopefully there's no hope. There's only no something. Didn't Yoda say something like that, there is hope because he's on he's going to be playing after that. There you go exactly, They're literally there, literally is there? Literally is hope? Yes, and that too? All right A Josel the rebel, Thank you so much for coming in. Man, thank you, this has been great.

And give this a listen. This is reminiscing. It was so crazy. You were never home. So many nights that have felt a lunge deeping. That darkness had to get in my zone and they wish I can see you more, not that I am grown, and you think I don't love you, but I know that you're wrong, and it's crazy. You think that w was crazy and sing. We used to hanging every day with link go to the store, set off for lunch, to go about everything. Your brother junior passing, watching, drawn yourself in your paint.

Now new mission. That's a different sector. I'm here now talking to start collecting. Move to a different section. Hey, because I'm upset. It's one false move. You better. I hope you have protection. There's no regret. My hands are forced to lead the weapon too much son can get you, so keep it stepping no cap gate city. What I'm repping. I missed the mold days for its drive mail hunk go getting those with them. Days when they called you broke. Now where the day's them sayings again? That called you bro turned into a well you have that back when they need you, when they see your time, keep it and stacked.

They don't see you now they be hating, know me. I get green like the eagles. I do the wish way theise. I do this fecial for my peoples, straight facts, moving forward. And my time is dudy. Yes, ain't got no tougher back. And for this like it's tennis, I reinvented this new cold and laws invented and never settence. My song gone and reminiscing. And then as time is taken like broken family, my first is the press and broken. Now I'm back, let's get it. You're hurt. Twenty twenty. I got a tonnel vision because then the booths where again said and don't you need to get it?

Come from a herd. They have a pop up existant bro. They locked up. She kind of miss him. Nash, New Hampshire, you know how we live in Should I tell all my I did get come from them transits? You know how we do to all my sisters, adition, proud of you and long night sentis through going hard is what I'm trying to do. These other rappers they know comp tissue. No, you'll place no more propositions. It's not the quantum physics. You ain't gonna beat me. You know my position without the proper vision.

They can't see it to go over their kitchen. Speak only when spoken to, Because now what it is. If you're gonna make it, then you gotta be a humble due. Don't let the devil get a hold of you. Stop doing from what you're supposed to do. I'm moving to send you all this message in I'll hope you read it. Sure you decided me y'all wasn't seeing if y'all have strengthen I ain't want to believe me for y'all fight. You know, demons, the little temptation be part of your weakness and make different choices of the issue being.

And that's the fact. Like again, to put it into that, how come these chigains all took up on the internet never been into that at Ben a threat them shots five with the missiles. That man, you're greeting mission like they get man pack it back, So y'all a history. May I can lose I need of victory, man, I can risk another injury with pain and stuff for in their misery. You're feeling me if it's my money, y'all and disagree if you ain't about that. Actually, all that talkings for their birds and sugar physically the nerg that's rushing into me