Matt Connarton Unleashed: Ajuzel Da Rebel

0:00 Hello, how's it going? Hey? How do you say you're I don't

0:02 know how to pronounce your name. It's okay, I was sure. A

0:07 rebel is here. Welcome and uh, we do have a few of your

0:11 tracks here. Why don't we play something and then we'll talk for a bit.

0:16 What do you You sent us three and I made radio edits of of

0:19 all three of them. Uh. So we do have options, But what

0:22 would be a good one to open with and then we'll come back and talk

0:24 about it? Either let me done or what made me? What? Maybe

0:29 is the one I did for my son's like a tribute song for them.

0:31 Oh, let's play that one first and then we can we can talk about

0:34 that. Okay. So this is what made me a rebel. It doesn't

0:42 roll off my tongue a lot of people. I'll get it though, I'll

0:45 get it all right here. It is, this is, This is called

0:47 what made me? Maybe? Don't cry, Maybe, don't cry no more.

0:52 I'm so sorry that I left you standing in the tude outside. I

0:57 hope you know yours you my and it's it's you, baby. I can't

1:03 even sleep it you. I cannot replace this, No one can replace you.

1:08 I'm empty. You come crazy. I remember when I used to standing

1:38 her in hardcore, but I feel like get cold. I don't remember when

1:42 I had no money. You know, I am not sure that the cry

1:46 I had them enough for the best. Wiping my tears, I can be

1:48 like the rest deep down inside of the press. I remember them comes up

1:51 with last shout because my son I was hurting. Yeah, I ain't want

1:53 to live no more, trying to battle my demons and lost myself. I

1:57 put my whole family to paint. I know that they love me, but

2:00 I push them away. But I don't know what's wrong with me. Demons

2:06 they calling me all that's my sunny. It was part of me? Can

2:07 say goodbye? What's on me? I left my head out, living with

2:14 grand now and I don't know what's wrong with me. Demons they calling me?

2:20 That's my sunny? Was part of me. Can't say goodbody, what's

2:22 on me? I left my head out. I'm living a grand out,

2:28 y'all. Y'all, I had no way to tell people that my life isn't

2:31 safe. I wanted to in my own life the chosen better. I put

2:37 my pain in every ball because music's my escape. I said, all alone

2:40 and praying ho for better days. But God bless me with three more sons.

2:45 I feel like I'm never running front of pain right now? I know

2:49 and if you know right now because right now I'm a better man back then

2:53 and understand because right now you know what? God, please don't understand right

2:57 now why you have to go take come away and all this pande I haven't

3:02 done right now. I have to live through the worst all again. But

3:07 right now, while I'm stronger to see him longer, that's my little Julian.

3:12 I feel like a fool again. I ain't get to see him grow

3:15 up, turn to a bigger man. I feel like you hate me.

3:17 God, Please don't let me fall again. Why do I feel like you

3:21 hear men? Be crazy? You took too for my babies. My heart

3:24 is fably and what am I supposed right now? I think I need saying

3:29 me? Why you am mighty? Holding on? I lost too one my

3:31 babies, and I know that's impossible, but I dream of miracles to get

3:37 my boys right back to me. Right in Mom's that spiriture, I feel

3:39 it on again. I wish I can't hold my boys again. Yeah,

3:46 baby, don't cry, Baby, don't cry no more I'm so sorry that

3:53 I left you standing in the food outside. I hope you know I'm yours

3:58 your mind. It's maybe I can't even steep it you. I cannot replace,

4:05 no one can replace you. That is a Josel Am I saying it

4:15 right. Ay, Josel the Rebel here on Matt connorson Unleashed on this Saturday

4:20 morning. Uh, he's here with Jenny and I in The track is called

4:23 what Made Me, and that is the as we were discussing off air.

4:27 That is the first time that's been played on the Radio World Radio Premiere.

4:30 So we're very uh, very happy to play that. And that is you

4:33 were saying too that, Uh, that song has kind of been blown up

4:36 for you. You've been getting a lot of a lot of attention with that.

4:40 Yeah, I've been getting a lot of attention with that. Done like

4:43 a competition in Holy Oak Mess it was, and uh, I guess the

4:48 competition was for to be able to go down to Atlantic Records. Oh.

4:53 I battled like thirty nine other artists. When I went down there, I

4:57 showcased another song and then I did that song and I pulled a lot of

5:01 heart strings and ended up winning. Yeah, Grass and then the Thursday after

5:04 that, I ended up going down to Atlantic Records. Talked to Bailey the

5:09 n R from Atlantic Records. Oh wow, that was the first song I

5:12 played for her too, and she liked it. Oh no kidding, you'll

5:14 put her like I mean. She told me to bring like seven songs and

5:16 I bring like eleven just in case, like seventeen songs just in case,

5:19 and I ended up playing eleven for her. She wanted to keep listening to

5:23 more songs. Oh no kidding, that's excellent. So it's really it was

5:25 actually really good. Good experience too. It is my first time going to

5:28 New York City, first time experiencing all the traffic, and yeah, yeah,

5:30 crazy, it was crazy. Do you have to get in the cab?

5:34 No, I actually drove down there. I had to pay sixty five

5:36 dollars for parking at the drive crazy man four hours paid sixty five dollars for

5:41 parking. And then yeah, I don't know. I think you actually you're

5:44 probably better off that way. Last time I was there and I have to

5:46 take a taxi, I thought I was gonna die. I'd rather take a

5:49 taxi. Yeah, I take taxi? Were you were you nervous? Saw

5:55 dude. Yeah, that's a big deal. Or you have to go over

5:59 the tappan Zee Bridge. What is it? The giant bridge that George Washington

6:03 Bridge. I think, Oh, I don't know if they renamed I think

6:05 they call it. I think they Yeah, I think they did rename it.

6:09 I think they did rename it. Yeah, it's a scary bridge.

6:12 Yeah. So, uh, the song we should talk about is this song

6:18 is very personal to you, very personal? Yes, yeah, we should.

6:21 We should talk about it. I mean it's a it's a heavy subject

6:24 obviously, but yeah, we should talk about this first. Yeah. So

6:28 in twenty eighteen, I had my firstborn son. His name is Jaden.

6:33 He lasted about two months. He ended up passing away from SIDS. Yeah,

6:38 and for anyone who doesn't know, SIDS is a sudden infant death syndrome,

6:42 also often referred to as crib death. And uh, and I believe

6:46 it's kind of a mystery, right that. Yeah, they still don't know,

6:48 They still don't know. Nobody really knows why it happens. Yeah,

6:50 Oh that's horrible. So two months, so sorry for you. Two months,

6:54 Yeah, two months he made it. He passed away in October.

7:01 October twelfth. It was so he was born August eighth, August seventh,

7:06 and then he passed away October twelfth. Wow, And that's where it really

7:12 put me into a dark place, dark hole, no doubt. That's the

7:15 reason why I started rapping making music. Yeah, because before I was like

7:18 making music and it wasn't wasn't anything serious. Yeah, my dad would like

7:24 put me in the studio and all that stuff. When I was like thirteen,

7:26 it used to be a DJ and my mom used to listen to like

7:30 Spanish music and always dancing and doing all that stuff. But yeah, so

7:34 I got through that. It was in my dark place started making music.

7:39 I made a couple of songs about my son's It was like at first there

7:45 were like anger anger songs, Yeah, and then I finally came to a

7:47 compromise and made this song. I was like really stuck on it. Yeah,

7:53 I got the first half. So the first half of that song is

7:55 about my son Jayden, and then I got stuck. So that part where

7:59 it goes, God, please don't understand right now, why'd you have to

8:03 go take him away? So that's that part is where I got stuck.

8:07 And that song and then literally right after that, my fourth son that was

8:13 born. His name is Julian. He made it about four months twenty days

8:16 and he passed away from SIDS too as well. Oh my god, oh

8:22 right there. I was able to finish the song. I know that's not

8:24 really good circumstances, but I was able to finish the song that way.

8:28 Yeah, making a song and sent it out to all my people, sent

8:31 it all to my friends and they were like, Yo, that song is

8:33 crazy, dude. Yeah yeah, and stuff like that. Yeah, you

8:37 know, I just went and finished the song, and so I kind of

8:41 it's like a tribute song for them, Like you know what I mean,

8:43 They're not alive here, but they're alive in my music. Yeah. Yeah,

8:46 and I'm happy to go around the world to like perform that song.

8:50 Yeah. I mean, it comes up on the show a lot, you

8:52 know, conversations about taking traumatic events and you know, some of the horrible

8:56 things that happened and trying to create art of it. And not only because

9:01 not only does it help you to work through it, it's it's kind of

9:03 like a therapy right when you do that, but also too, you know,

9:07 it might help others who have gone through similar things. And I don't

9:11 know any of the numbers on SIDS. But I know it's I've known people

9:16 who it's happened to, and it's uh. I don't have any children,

9:18 but I can only imagine how horrible that is to experience that. You you

9:24 have other kids, Yes, I have two middle children. Okay. Jamil

9:30 is my rainbow baby, who was right after my firstborn. Yeah, so,

9:33 I mean he didn't really get to love that we were supposed to give

9:37 him. Yeah right now he's good. Yeah. Yeah. And then I

9:39 had my son Elijah, yeah yeah, and my son Jamil is about to

9:43 be four on the twenty fourth. And then oh wow, okay, very

9:48 good, very good. You mentioned two. Your dad? Is your dad

9:54 a musician? Oh he's a DJ. Yeah yeah, yeah, DJ old

9:58 school three g yeah yeah, goes by mister old school now. Yeah,

10:03 he's just like local local DJ. Yeah. Yeah. He used to go

10:07 to Rhode Island DJ down there. It's good old school DJ plays all the

10:09 old school gyms, all that stuff. Does he still do it? Yeah,

10:13 he's handicapped now from diabetes both legs, but he's still You had another

10:18 gig, I think it was the eighth, June eighth, and he went

10:22 down there. I said, it was good. Yeah, put all the

10:24 music for them, you know, handicapping all he still does. He still

10:26 works on cars, he still does it. Good for him. Yeah,

10:28 yeah, that's awesome, good for him. So is that where your your

10:33 interest in music started? Yeah? When I was about thirteen, he'd always

10:37 tried to get me down to the basement because he had all his friends down

10:39 there, DJ and and he would do some recording stuff like that, and

10:43 I'd go down there and watch and he's like, yo, son, go

10:48 on your turn. I'm not doing that. I don't wrap, bro,

10:52 like I don't wrap. Yeah, and then I don't know, eventually that

10:54 caved. Yeah, and I did like a cover song for like for T

10:58 Pain, I'm sprung o kidd, I like a cover song, and he

11:01 was like, see, I told you could do it. Yeah. And

11:03 ever since then, I started like making the little rhymes on my phone and

11:05 stuff like that and nice. But it never got serious. It never got

11:09 serious like that. Yeah. It wasn't until five years ago until I started

11:13 making music seriously. Yeah. Yeah. And now you have you done shows

11:18 with Hope the rapper? How do you guys know each other? I've done

11:22 Hope since high school? Oh no, okaidd Yeah, oh wow since high

11:26 school. Oh cool, I have done shows with him where he's on a

11:30 different set, he's has his own sets things like that. Yeah, but

11:31 yeah, he's a really good musician. Shout out to George. You know

11:37 what I mean. He's good. Yeah, we actually have a song coming

11:39 together. Oh you do a song. Yeah, we're doing a song.

11:43 I just gotta find the time actually going down to LA to do a tour.

11:46 Oh yeah, it's a four day tour from the twenty six to the

11:48 thirtieth BT weekend. We're doing that excellent. Well, you know you can

11:56 come when you're ready to radio release that. Yes, yes, we love

12:01 the world We love doing the world premieres here. Yeah, we're doing uh,

12:03 as you're probably aware, we open today with Winter Circle, his newest

12:09 single. Because I haven't heard that yet. Yeah, yeah, we'll play

12:11 it again too, uh at the end of the hour. But yeah,

12:13 because we're doing uh, you know, he's releasing ten ten new singles each

12:18 week and we're doing uh, they're already they're already on the streaming services by

12:22 the time we plan. But we we're doing the world radio premieres of each

12:24 one each week. So yeah, we really are Oh yeah, yeah,

12:28 no, we love that and and he's he's amazing. We had a great

12:31 conversation when he was here. And I really like the positivity of his music.

12:35 And yeah, he has really good positivity in his music. He keeps

12:39 he like, like less swears and stuff. That's why like his music keeps

12:43 you like, no swears and stuff like I kind of keep it like you

12:46 know, yeah, I'm just me on it, you know, I mean,

12:48 yeah, it took me a few minutes to do those radio eds.

12:50 Yeah, let me let me down, let me down. Yeah, there's

12:54 a lot of nwords in there, but yeah that was what he said,

12:56 a lot of nwards on there. But you know what I mean, yea

13:00 be an original rapper, fos and just me that's normally the way I talk

13:03 all the time. Took Yeah, it took me a few No, I

13:05 don't mind, No, I don't mind. But you now have radio and

13:07 it was worth it. Yeah yeah I can send those yeah yeah absolutely,

13:11 yeah, absolutely, Well let's let's play another one. What should we?

13:16 Uh? Let me Down as actually my biggest hit on oh on Spotify.

13:20 I think it's almost at one hundred k streams. Oh okay, it's like

13:22 ninety eight hundred something. I don't know. I actually I haven't checked today.

13:26 I haven't checked today. It might be one that might be that.

13:30 If not, we'll get it over the top, right, Yeah, Yeah,

13:33 that's awesome. Yeah all right, let's while you're looking that up,

13:35 we'll go and play this. So this is uh, this is a Josel

13:39 said it right, Yeah, features you did it al rebel and uh.

13:46 And this is called uh, this is called let me down. Check it

13:48 out. Give me no, I will hear them. Give me now.

14:05 I stay by my dog and let it when I don't come around because me

14:09 while you have to let me down. Now, I'm loving fun. Why

14:13 you're thinking number clown got you? It was my home and you know I

14:18 peeved it. I could tell if me singing to me, chop and hit

14:20 him. Now we bidding pull up on me. You know I'm twigging.

14:24 You have to let me down. That's why I don't come around. Because

14:31 they get older of it, like they can be complicated. Most they can

14:35 say, they don't show what they're staying. It's heart I trust. When

14:37 you're on circle betrayed, you know they get letting them traps. Keep by

14:39 the night you know they get letting wing them trappers. Keep by the night

14:45 now, Monro, I ain't never coming home. Get the back. I

14:48 got a call. I tell you wanting me alone while you're blowing on my

14:52 phone. Why are you blowing on my phone? You're coming at me?

14:56 Watch your tone. You're coming at me. You watch your tone. Don't

14:58 you say you feel path me? Look out what you started? I'm gonna

15:03 go over got it? Get started in my problem. Why y'all going down

15:07 on me? I guess I gotta go hard and you know tragedy just hit

15:11 them spinning magic. I got it. I don't hear them get me now.

15:16 I stay by my dog and letting in the swide. I don't come

15:18 around cause us feding me while you have to let me down. Now,

15:22 I'm loving fo because you're thinking number clown gotch was my home and you know

15:28 what peeved it. I could tell them singing me trying to hit him.

15:31 Now we beating pull up on me. You know I'm twigging. You have

15:35 to let me down. That's why I don't come around. I don't know

15:41 what happen that people around me, or why they keep switching and choosing the

15:45 side. Always been true to myself. Being true to myself it got me

15:48 to lose in my mind. Homies been faking, they moving too funny.

15:50 I don't know love me that you're trying to play me in. I don't

15:54 know why I'm going so crazy. I don't have the time, like why,

15:56 why why are you acting? Thank God that's catchy, buy my lonely

16:02 while I stay my grind. I'm stuck in my head from losing some friends,

16:06 been dealing with pain. I hope that it is if I never pop,

16:07 won't see me again. It goes to the shadow can see through a

16:11 line, and I don't know why drive in my head sometimes with search a

16:14 for truth. The luck of his life can switch up the past because I'm

16:17 across time, can switch up the pace because I want my grind, because

16:19 I want my grind now I don't have the time. No, no,

16:23 no for them, get me. No. I stay by my dolling give

16:27 me. That's why I don't come around looking just fading me while you have

16:33 to let me down. Now I'm look getting falled against it. Why you're

16:36 thinking number clown? Gotcha? It's my home and you know what pod I

16:41 could tell a singing game chump and hit him. Now we beating. Pull

16:45 up on me. You know I'm tweaking. You have to let me down.

16:49 That's why I don't come around clicking, feding me stay step. That

17:08 is let me down. That is a joosel rebel. I'm getting confident with

17:12 that. Yeah yeah, yeah, that was really good. Better than most

17:15 people. Yeah, yeah, the most people. Where does the name come

17:18 from? By the way, Actually my dad gave me that name. My

17:19 dad name my uncle Tom oh kidding me? Yeah, oh cool. My

17:23 uncle told me to mess around like like just you know, a j a

17:27 ji a joos and then like they stuck, like they just start calling me

17:32 that, and I'm like, you know what I mean. And then when

17:33 I was trying to make my rap name, that's what you want to make

17:36 your rap name? I don't know, and we already call you that,

17:40 and it's like all right, it's like yeah, it's unique. Nobody has

17:42 that, so I guess perfect. I mean, yeah, yeah, yeah,

17:45 that's awesome. Uh yeah, he is here with us, of course,

17:48 live in studio on this Saturday morning, and which so you were looking

17:55 up, Uh what made me is is that the one that's almost two hundred

17:59 thousand no, no, let me down. Let me down is okay,

18:02 Yeah, I just released h what made me? Oh? Okay yeah,

18:06 so let me down and that'll be crossing that that barrier today probably one hundred

18:11 k. Go go listen to it on Spotify, not right now, in

18:14 a little bit. Yeah yeah, yeah, jack that number up. Let's

18:17 get them over the top today. Yeah yeah. Yeah. We were kind

18:19 of talking off air about how hard that is and how Spotify now is like

18:25 they're not they're not paying people for any songs under a thousands. Yeah,

18:30 yeah, which I don't agree with that at all, a lot of people

18:33 are complaining about it. But the only thing is it's yeah, I mean

18:37 you're talking about pennies. I don't care. They pay like fraction of a

18:41 penny. I don't care. Yeah, well they don't pay enough number one,

18:44 But I don't care. It's still your song, it's still your revenue

18:48 that that you're making for them, and they're keeping it whatever, penny,

18:52 quarter, a penny whatever, they're keeping it. Yeah, and they're ripping

18:56 off artists by going, oh, you have to have this minimum of a

18:59 thousand play, nobody gets paid except us until then. No, I think

19:03 it's a ripoff. I think it's doing artists wrong. I'm really not.

19:07 I'm not a fan of Spotify because of these things. Well, Apple Music's

19:10 like fraction of pennies too, Yeah, it's ridiculous. The one that pays

19:12 the most is title. Title pays a penny for stream and it doesn't seem

19:17 like much, but that's it's a lot more than zero points. There was

19:19 zero three, right, Spotify pays and then apples zero points there's zero eight.

19:23 Yeah. Yeah, it's so hard for artists to make money. These

19:26 I think part of why people are getting back into records even I've seen they

19:32 said last year records so outsold CDs. Really, I wonder how it compares

19:38 in regards to streaming though. I mean, I think artists make more on

19:41 an album than they do on streaming any day of the week. It's really

19:45 you You're you're making most of your money off of your merchandise. Yeah,

19:49 yeah, I have a merchan pade too. Yeah. Yeah, it's spring

19:56 familiar with that. Yeah. Use it's like digital right now. Yeah.

20:00 I made it because you know, I figured i'd get something out there,

20:03 right right. I mean I got at a couple of tests, sweatshirts and

20:07 stuff like that. Oh cool, I write them to the shows. People

20:11 say where do you get those from show website and stuff like that. Excellent,

20:14 excellent. You were talking too off air about when you do what made

20:18 me live and what goes into that? Oh, because in that it's it's

20:23 a good stage performance. Uh. I have these two canvases of my two

20:27 boys yea, and I have either my fiance and my sister hold hold one

20:33 of them on each side. And then you know, every time I performed

20:37 this song, they have a visual of my of my son. So that

20:41 makes the performance even even better. And people are just quiet and they're focused.

20:45 Yeah, like everybody in the room is everybody's tensions on me. Like

20:48 nobody's talking to each other. It's like people's cameras are out, people's flash

20:52 lights are out right. I mean, I just did a show in New

20:56 York. Every show I go to, I do that song. Yeah.

20:59 I don't like to do the same venue. I don't like to do the

21:00 same venue and do the same songs, So I did different songs if it's

21:03 the same venue. Yeah. But I just recently did a show, So

21:07 I won the show in Holyoak, went down to Atlantic Records, did that

21:11 and then I went down to Rhode Island. I did another competition, another

21:15 battling another forty or another thirty nine artists. I was actually the first set

21:19 on Rhode Island is where I was born and raised till I was nine years

21:22 old. I came out here. So when I went to Hord Island,

21:26 I had like so many people that showed up, Like so, I had

21:30 like at least thirty people that showed up. So the venue only held like

21:33 seventy something people. Oh really, I had thirty of them. Yeah.

21:37 So the competition was for five hundred dollars and then whoever bring the most people

21:41 got another one hundred, two hundred dollars. So I went there. You

21:47 know, I did two other songs. I did let Me Down, and

21:49 I did another song called Bombshell It's not ready, It's not ready for radio.

21:52 Yeah, And then I did What made Me I always close with that

21:56 song. Yeah. The song, it's like my song I'm originally there to

22:00 do. I'm originally there to do that. I'm out here for my sons.

22:03 I wouldn't be out here wait, if it wasn't for them, it

22:03 wouldn't be rapping. Yeah, out here doing that and it's got me to

22:07 many places. Yeah, I mean I'm heading to LA. I just went

22:11 to New York opened for Connie Diamond the performance out there. I won the

22:15 five hundred dollars, actually won seven hundred dollars. That's awesome, and that's

22:19 what keeps opening more opportunities every time I win these competitions, more people.

22:22 He asked me, Yo, you want to come. I was supposed to

22:25 go do the Three Headed Goat with Charlie Clips. I think George is doing

22:30 that too, but I'm not gonna be able to make that. Oh okay.

22:33 He wanted to do a new song that we're doing. Yeah, I

22:34 just haven't found the time to get my song recorded yet. Oh okay,

22:37 okay, I've been really busy with LA stuff. Yea. Yeah, my

22:41 first time going to La away. Yeah, living five days, Yeah,

22:45 like another world. I hear it's like walking into another world. Yeah yeah,

22:49 and it's going to be hot. Yeah. I'm taking my first flight,

22:53 my first time taking an airplane really. Yeah, first time ever born

22:57 an airplane or anything. So I'm nervous about that too, first time being

23:00 away from everybody. I'm not gonna have anybody I know out there for my

23:03 man, You've got everybody you know right in your hand. I know,

23:07 but it's just it's different. Especially it's gonna be my first time performing that

23:10 song without none of my regular people that usually show up to my shows.

23:14 Yeah, so I'm gonna be doing these these songs in front of strangers,

23:18 you know what I mean? Yeah, that's what makes me. It's making

23:19 me more nervous too as well. Yeah, rose to you, that takes

23:23 a lot to have the courage is that I have cross the country. I'm

23:29 happy that I have one person with me, at least that I know,

23:30 my manager, you know what I mean. I have one person that's coming

23:33 with me. You'll make new friends while i'll there. You'll come home with

23:37 more than you had. Yeah. That's everybody keeps saying. Rex Shattuck is

23:41 in the Facebook live chat. Hello, that's a new name in there,

23:45 sat. Yeah, that's my fiance. Are there? Oh I misread that

23:48 back, Shaduck. I'm sorry, Yes, very good, very good.

23:52 By the way, where do you record? I recorded sound Shuttle. It's

23:56 in Boxford Masks seven engineers. Name is Nikky Stix. Ever since I linked

24:00 up with him, it's been really good. He knows my sound now like

24:06 I get there. What I do is I record at my house. I

24:10 get it memorized, you know what I mean, I already have it,

24:12 don what I want for autotune or yeah, you know, so you kind

24:17 of make a demo. Yeah. So when I get there, it's already

24:21 in my head. I'm able to do two three songs and a two hour

24:23 time spen. Oh really paying for last time I did four songs in a

24:29 two hour session. I mean, I get there, get the songs according

24:32 and I just let the engineer do his work. He already knows my sound

24:34 and then the only thing he has to mess with is my features. You

24:37 know what I mean, feature songs. I do have a solo album coming

24:40 out pretty soon, but I have a feature album coming out hopefully when I

24:45 come back from LA. I'm trying to get that situated. Now. For

24:48 those who don't know, can you explain what that is when you talk about

24:49 features? Oh? Features just another persson on another artist on your song.

24:53 So the feature album is people that's part of my group. So I have

24:57 another one with good Bars and Hope the rapper. We got to get those

25:02 songs recorded in order for me to drop my album because I wanted to get

25:03 them on there. Yeah, so that song that me and Hope we're doing,

25:07 that's going on there, and then the song with Me and Good Bars

25:08 is going on there. Excellent, I think, oh yeah, yeah,

25:12 he's been on the show. Well he actually he was on a couple of

25:15 times when he was still in Sepsis. Yeah yeah, I think he left

25:19 steps Yeah he did. Yeah, yeah, and then he's coming on soon,

25:22 right. I think we have him in July. I think it's July.

25:26 Just double check the calendar. I'm looking yeah, I'm looking forward to

25:30 to, uh, talking to him. He will be here on July sixth,

25:33 Yeah, studio because when he was here with Sepsis, obviously you know,

25:38 they were talking about band stuff. But I'm also looking really looking forward

25:42 to talking to him just because he's he works with so many people. Yeah,

25:45 he's also a good rappers too. Yeah, yeah, good rappers too.

25:48 Uh. He actually kind of paved the way it goes to studios.

25:51 I used to go to his studio a long time ago. Actually did my

25:53 first music video, oh no kidding, Yeah, the songs called now you

25:56 know Okay. Yeah, it was the first music video I've did. Me

26:02 and Good Bars are in there. He recorded it he edited all that stuff?

26:04 Is is that on YouTube? That's on YouTube? Yes, okay,

26:08 it's an old one, but yeah, people still go. I know a

26:12 lot of kids they going there and they're like, yeah, they singing.

26:15 Now you know the song is old, excellent song. No, that's good

26:18 though, I mean it's timeless. That's that's really good. So now the

26:23 what's his name again? The producer that you work with, ni okay?

26:27 Does he spell like the guy from Ali Crue Nikki six? Uh? Well,

26:33 anyway, I assume it's not the same guy. But no, but

26:37 it sounds like so is he? So he doesn't just engineer, he actually

26:41 produces. He produces. Yeah, he plays like the actual instruments and no

26:45 kidding, he doesn't do the beats I haven't gotten. I have gotten two

26:48 beats from him, but I haven't used him yet. I got the full

26:49 exclusive rights from him. I'm just waiting. I'm trying to come up with

26:52 a perfect song for those beats. But usually, like YouTube beats, I

26:59 go buy them, you know, I'll go, I don't know they for

27:02 some reason. My whenever I'm thinking, so I beat pops up and I'm

27:06 just like, oh I like that one. Yeah, I don't even have

27:08 to really look for beats because I feel like my phone is always reading what

27:11 I'm thinking. Yeah, I go on there and I go to YouTube and

27:15 like the first couple of beats, I look at it and like, like

27:17 those ones, let's go go on their beat stars and I'll just pay for

27:19 the pay for the beat. That's usually how more of a melodic artists like

27:25 to gravitated towards a lootic wave. Listened to like a Buggie with the hoodie

27:29 apology, well's my favorite artist. I used to listen to some old school

27:34 rappers like uh, Lil Wayne and you know jay Z and all that stuff.

27:38 Yeah, not really a big fan of the old school of the old

27:41 school wave. Dad growing up was like hard on the fifty cent, hard

27:45 on fifty cent, So I kind of like, you know what I mean,

27:48 that's music. Ah, Whenever I think of fifty cent, uh,

27:53 this is a little bit of a side street. But whenever I think of

27:56 a fifty cent I think of the first time I ever heard in the club

28:00 and I was and I was in the car and I heard it, and

28:03 the first time I heard it, I really really liked it. I thought,

28:06 Wow, it's really catchy. It was gonna be a huge hit,

28:07 and literally I think it was the second or third time I heard it,

28:11 I was like, I really don't like this. I was, I was,

28:15 I was just over it so fast. I don't know. That's just

28:19 the first thing I ever think that I think of. I think of his

28:22 the feud that he had with Jule, which was, yeah, like a

28:26 song by Jewelul in New York. The song goes Hard actually made another song.

28:33 I've cover a couple more songs that are that are unfinished through my solo

28:37 album. I kind of, uh, I guess Swagger jacked a little bit

28:42 of his of his flow, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah,

28:45 go from New York. I kind of like stole a little bit of

28:48 that, but I put it in my own. Yeah. Yeah, I'm

28:51 just waiting to get that out. Do you have any kind of an e

28:53 t A on the solo album? Do you know what I have? This

28:56 feature album I'm supposed to it's supposed to have already out, Oh, the

29:00 future album's coming. First feature albums comes first, which is why when I

29:03 come back from LA, my first priority is getting the photo shoot done and

29:07 then getting those songs recorded with mister Goodbars and Hope the rapper. Yeah,

29:11 yeah, should be all set, yeah cool, should be all set and

29:15 then it's gonna I should be up by hopefully August, No, say no,

29:22 I don't know, probably like next month. The tracks that we're hearing

29:26 today, are these not the future album but the solo album? Are these

29:30 all let Me Down? Let Me Down's going on there? Yes, okay

29:33 Down's going on there? And then reminiscing and what made Me's gonna go on

29:36 my solo album? Oh? Okay, cool, cool, excellent, excellent.

29:41 Are you doing any shows? Do you have any shows around here in

29:42 the area coming up? Or you got other stuff you're focused on? I

29:47 know, but the La one. I have a show that the twenty seventh

29:48 and the twenty ninth that are a part of Mia Snow's tour that she's doing.

29:56 I'm actually going with Scott Morris. He's doing that the show I won

30:00 in Rhode Island. He's the one that asked me. He goes you know,

30:03 I called him, he goes ya like your music. He's like,

30:07 have you ever performed out of New England? Yeah? And I was like,

30:11 no, I've just done like Mass, different parts of Mass for Island

30:15 stuff like that. Yeah, and he's like, you know, he's like,

30:17 what you doing come on to to LA And I was sick. He's

30:22 like, yeah, everything's gonna be up out of pocket because you're not sound

30:23 artists yet, so everything's out of pocket. Everything's paid to play, seems

30:26 to know, if you can afford. I was like, yeah, I

30:27 got you. Yeah, you know. Then that's how we came to that.

30:30 So four days, nice, four days. This is awesome for you.

30:36 I'm really excited for seventh. The twenty seventh, I'm doing the show

30:40 and I think it's North Hollywood, and then at the twenty nine I have

30:47 another one. But in between this podcast and stuff like that. Yeah yeah,

30:51 yeah, you got to make the most of the trip, right Yeah.

30:52 Well yeah, I'm just following. He's leading the way I'm following.

30:55 Yeah. No, that's cool. It's cool that. And I feel like,

31:00 I don't know, I've always felt like I see it a little bit

31:03 more in hip hop that I mean, you see it in all genres,

31:06 but mentorship is so important when there's when there's people who see something in you,

31:11 who are willing to help you, you know, instead of just saying,

31:15 you know, oh this guy's got all this talent, but I'm just

31:18 gonna let him know about Scott Morris. Like he just took me on.

31:22 He asked me what I can afford. I told him what I can afford,

31:25 and he's like, all right, boom, send me all the paperwork.

31:27 Yeah, I think I need to fill out everything's legit. Yeah,

31:30 yeah, wow, that's good. I had to book my flight. I

31:33 thought we were driving down there on oh really a day day. It was

31:37 like a one day, twenty four hours. I was like, wow,

31:40 it's a long drive. And then if I figured out when he sent me

31:42 the the forums, oh a fight. Yeah. Yeah, So you've never

31:48 flown? Never flown? Are you flying out of Manchester or Boston Austin?

31:52 Yeah, I can give you some tips. I fly a lot. You

31:56 do, I too, I know I've been. I was always asking a

31:59 run. I was asked and around like that's my bosses. I was asking

32:01 a lot of people that's flown. Nick couldn't really give me anything. They

32:05 said, just make sure you're there early. Yeah. I think I'm like

32:07 three hours or three weeks away from my next trip something like that. Minnesota.

32:14 Oh okay, I've never been there either. Yeah. The important thing

32:17 is to get there, you know, get to the airport early and just

32:20 to be super organized early. It needs to be like, what a couple

32:23 hours. Yeah, I'd get there at least two hours early. Yeah.

32:28 I have no idea where the terminals are. Nothing. Yeah, well,

32:31 chat, I'll help you, because to me, that's the stressful part about

32:36 flying is dealing with Like, it's not the being in the big metal tube

32:38 twenty thousand feet in the air of that part so easy. It's it's just

32:42 dealing with the airport past security on all right. That's that's where the stress

32:47 is, right in my opinion. Yeah, I had to figure out what

32:51 size the bag is you can bring so oh yeah, I paid for a

32:53 check bag. Then I figured out that the the carry on bag was supposed

32:58 to be twenty two inches, and I was like, I could have fit

33:00 everything in there. Oh, but I already paid for the check bag.

33:02 So I got the big luggage. Yeah, it's going to pack my stuff?

33:07 Yeah yeah, get my clothes ready. I know they're going to LA

33:09 So I got to watch out for colors down there. Yeah, I did

33:13 not know that. Yeah, especially in the rap game, you gotta just

33:15 watch out for your colors. Out there, especially no red and blue.

33:17 That's where like bloods and crips originated from it, Like, don't wear anything

33:22 that makes sense, Like you know, you don't want to go out there

33:23 wearing I mean, my favorite color is blue. I have outfits that are

33:27 blue and reddy. But yeah, not going to bring those colors down there.

33:30 That makes wear like more neutral colors, you know what I mean,

33:32 like purple yellow, and that never would have occurred to me, but that

33:36 totally makes sense. Yeah, yeah, I don't want anybody taking me right

33:42 certain type of way, you know what I mean in star trouble, Yeah,

33:44 exactly, I'm down there to start trouble. No, that's not something

33:46 you need. No God, can you imagine someone in the crowd like,

33:52 oh, this guy's I'm not ready for all that. No Wight here for

33:55 five days. Hope that opens up a lot more opportunities. Yeah, I

34:01 can't. I can't imagine what it's like to lose a child. That's not

34:06 something that I can imagine. But I am absolutely amazed by you and your

34:10 ability to have taken this tragedy that actually incited this mass creativity inside of you

34:17 that's just coming out of you in such a positive energy. It's just really

34:22 commendable. It really is. His birthday is coming up next month, no

34:24 kidding the last six ye his birthday's going to be one years old. Wow.

34:30 So yeah, this past month, you know, I've been a little

34:31 bit depressed. But yeah, like then it's like some you know, some

34:37 days I'm like, I don't want to go to LA you know what I

34:37 mean. Yeah, I already booked my flight, you know what I mean.

34:39 Yeah, Yeah, already book my flight. Some days I just want

34:43 to be like I don't want to make music. Yeah, I'm still there

34:45 and what I got to do, Yeah, still being a father to my

34:49 kids. Yeah, I mean I'm there. There's probably a lot of father's

34:52 out there that you'll help them. Yeah. Yeah that the song did blow

34:57 up really fast. Yeah, it's actually that's where I'm going to La you

35:01 know, yeah song, Yeah down there. I want to go perform the

35:05 song down there. I talked to some people down there, like uh,

35:09 and they were like, the didn't even know what SIDS was. Really,

35:12 Yeah, I didn't even know what was. I'm like, oh, it's

35:15 this. I'm like, it's sudden infandeth intrum. It's like the baby's brains

35:17 pretty much tells them to stop breathing or yeah, they say it can happen

35:21 on your on the baby's stomach or the baby's back, but it happened on

35:24 both. So my firstborn was on the stomach, my my and my son

35:29 Julian was on his back. So yeah, Jenny was looking up up numbers.

35:31 Really, any out of one hundred thousand children born thirty eight point four

35:37 will die from said, there's roughly twenty five hundred babies that die every year

35:43 from sudden infant death syndrome. And these numbers are coming from March of twenty

35:45 twenty three. So, I mean, it is rare, but you know,

35:51 there's there's enough of a number there that you know, but the theory

35:53 is still out. We haven't we haven't pinpointed it down. Nobody knows.

35:58 I don't find my money's on something genetic that maybe haven't pinpointed yet. Yeah,

36:02 maybe they'll when they do the gena testing on it. Maybe they could

36:05 find something. Yeah it's a gene or something, because it didn't happen to

36:08 us twice, so right right, yeah, maybe they'll find something, could

36:12 be something there. But yeah, so statistically it's rare, but it's more

36:15 common than most people realize. Yeah, twenty five hundred children dying a year

36:20 is a is a decent number. Yeah yeah, and they just don't know

36:24 why yet. It's just it's all it's been a medical mystery that just hasn't

36:30 been unraveled yet. Hopefully, if science grows and genetic and all that kind

36:35 of thing happens, you know, we'll find a reason be able to stop

36:37 it. What you're doing is phenomenal because you are raising awareness, you are

36:43 bringing attention to it. The next year, I wanted to do like a

36:46 sid's awareness tour free, you know what I mean. That's a great idea.

36:50 Wanted to do like, you know, free tour, you know what

36:52 I mean. Actually have my mom's ex fiance, Uh he's he's the one

36:58 that printed up like to think everything for that and I actually really liked it

37:01 when he printed that up for me, and I was like, yeah,

37:04 that actually sounds really good, like you know, for SIDS awareness and that's

37:08 good. You know, a free tour yep, don't get to nobody has

37:10 to pay nothing, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, go

37:13 there, set up the venues. But I just got to make a couple

37:15 more songs. Yeah, that sounds amazing. You'll definitely have to come back

37:20 and tell our audience about it. Yeah, I mean, and then I

37:22 just always gonna have my team open up for me do whatever you know PG

37:27 songs, you know. Yeah, I hope the rap will be good.

37:30 Yeah yeah, autely looking like mean and trying to do like shows are mean

37:35 and like a local tour, you know what I mean, not where it's

37:37 too far. Yeah. Yeah, so that everybody can make it and everybody

37:42 works, everybody has their own schedules. So we're gonna just get that situated.

37:45 Yep. You might even be able to get the March of Dimes involved.

37:49 Oh yeah, good call possibility. Yep, yeah, that makes sense.

37:52 That makes sense. Well we are we are approaching the top of the

37:55 hour. I want to make sure we get one more of your your tracks

37:59 and uh so we're what's the one we didn't play? Reminiscent Reminiscent? Yeah,

38:01 so that's a song. It was about when my mom was in her

38:06 dark days. My mom was in her dark days. It's the beginning of

38:09 it, and then it's about like New Hampshire and how people like did you

38:13 dirty? People? Did me dirty? It happened forever let Me Down was

38:17 about Okay, yeah, I kind of got that from the lyrics. Yeah

38:21 yeah. And I think there's people's that was closest to my circle that let

38:24 me down, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, I'm just

38:27 tired of that. Very relatable. We we certainly all had that. We

38:32 certainly all have had that happen. Yeah, trying to make sure I have

38:36 it here. So what we'll do is, yeah, we'll play that,

38:37 and then after that too, I'm gonna I'm gonna play again the Winter Circle,

38:42 the brand new track from Hope the Rapper as we continue our ten weeks

38:45 of world radio premieres of Hope the Rapper singles, which we're very happy about.

38:50 Love his stuff and love what you're doing. Man, this is great,

38:52 This is great. A j Usel the Rebel. What should people know

38:57 about how to find you online? Uh? I mean everything. We should

39:00 spell a j u s D E L D A R E b E l

39:07 and you can find me on every platform and please go to Spotify, Spotify.

39:13 We got to get that over, get that up. Yeah, yeah,

39:16 one hundred k almost there. Yeah, I bet it happens today.

39:21 Hopefully there's no hope, there's only no, something. Didn't you to say

39:24 something like that, there is hope because he's on he's going to be playing

39:28 after that. There you go exactly, they're literally there. Literally is there?

39:31 Literally is hope? Yes, and that too, all right A Josel

39:37 the rebel, Thank you so much for coming in. Man, thank you.

39:39 This is this has been great. And give this a listen. This

39:43 is reminiscing. It was so crazy. You were never home so many nights

40:06 that have felt the lung deep in the ductness. Had to get in my

40:08 zone and they wish I can see you more. Not that I am grown

40:12 anythink I don't love you, but I know that you're wrong and it's crazy.

40:15 You think that we was crazy and sing. We used to hanging every

40:17 day with link, go to the stores, heat off for lunch, to

40:20 go about everything. Your brother junior passing. Watch you drown yourself and your

40:22 paint. Now new mission, that's a different sector. I'm here now trying

40:27 to start collecting. Move to a different section. They hate because I'm upsetting

40:30 one false move you better. I hope you have protection. There's no regret

40:34 in my hands. Are forced to leave the weapon too much talking get you,

40:37 so keep it stepping no cap Gate city with them repping. I missed

40:40 the mold day's force drive mail hunk go getting those with them days when they

40:45 called you broke. Now where the day's them sayings again? That called you

40:47 bro turned into a well you have to back when they need you, when

40:50 it's your time keeping the stack. They'll see you now they be hating on

40:53 me. I get greened like the eagles. I do the wish ladies.

40:55 I do this fish for my peoples, straight facts moving forward. My time

41:00 is that he yes, ain't got no tough fear back in for this like

41:02 it's tennis. I reinvented this new cod and laws invented and never sentenced.

41:07 My song gone and reminisc and then that's time is taken like broken family,

41:09 my friend day is but the press and broken. Now I'm back, let's

41:13 get it. You're hurt. Twenty twenty. I got a tonnel vision because

41:15 then the boots whereas against it, and don't you need to get it?

41:19 Come from a herd they have a popup except Brodie locked up. I just

41:22 kind of miss him. Now, you know Hampshire, you know how we

41:23 live in Should I tell all my gus they can come from them transiers.

41:27 You know how we do to all my sisters, audition, proud of you,

41:30 and long night sentence through Going hard is what I'm trying to do.

41:34 These other rappers they know competition. No, you'll place no more propositions.

41:37 It's not the quantum physics. You ain't gonna beat me. You know my

41:39 position without the proper vision, they can't see her to go over their kitchen.

41:44 Speak only when spoken to it. Because now what it is, If

41:45 you're gonna make it, then you gotta be a humble dude. Don't let

41:49 the devil get a holder. You'll stop doing from what you're supposed to do.

41:51 I'm moving to send you all this message in I hope you read it.

41:53 Sure you decided me y'all wasn't seeing if y'all have strengthen I ain't want

41:57 to believe me for y'all fight. You know, demons, they should be

42:00 part of your weakness and make different choices of sious repeating. And that's the

42:04 fact. Like that is again to put it into that. How come these

42:06 again took up on the internet and never been into that have been a threat

42:09 them shots fired with the missiles. That man, you're greeting msn't like you

42:15 to get man packet back. So y'all a history may I can lose.

42:17 I need a victory, man, I can risk another injury with paying and

42:21 stuff for in their misery. You're feeling me if it's my money, y'all

42:23 and disagree if you ain't about that. Actually, all that talkings for the

42:27 burns and siga physically, the energy that's rushing into me and f I'm gonna

42:30 go, make the mistake and stand next to me, come step to me.

42:34 You do me wrong, and y'all are dead to me, and with

42:36 that fixure, you'll upsetting me my love for music, so it's meant to

42:38 be. I ain't gonna give up my goal ho for all my city,

42:40 that's my destiny. Rest in peace, man, rest in peace? Should

42:46 I tell my dad Homies National Ma Hampshire, I see you, Let's get

42:52 it. I don't think they know it's really not default. I'm gonna need

43:09 a minute, a minute, let's go. Who died it's hope. I'm

43:20 with the pot Ron got back. I'm going Uncle Hunktoki I've gotten since he's

43:24 got something of post twenty twenty Masco and I felt like pot man, pop

43:30 mam. They just seem the same for nigros. They washed down the product

43:32 and murdered out. He broke sounds. The couture been bunched with e gooes

43:37 like yay saying we just want the power to people and Pizzo. How they're

43:40 holding the remote nowadays seems like the troupe the Sea fall on me though I'm

43:46 a rebel for one cause this ball might set the middle of detect dogs.

43:51 How she knowing is something like Brett fall. I'm gonna need a breath because

43:54 you're going to the long yard. Heard you playing like Kevin and kt hard

43:59 thinking i'mber Doe, so probably I'll hit pause, swing gon lose the swinter

44:04 circle working for the bill Board in the night commercial art that'll put him in

44:08 check. Wait let me take him press. Wait way up next. We

44:13 ain't gonna lose the swinter circle working for the bill Board in the night commercial

44:16 for you, that'll put him in check. Wait let me take up breath,

44:21 Wait way up next, Wait a second verse. You gonna need a

44:24 nurse soldier boy, tell us it in that we did a first hold a

44:29 noise because this is gonna hit him. Wear hurts Polo boids. We got

44:31 a rally starry to bring this darn we gonna turn into a garden. Were

44:36 not the same. I ain't like James Harden shoot four the stars and no

44:39 you can't guard him. I will not touch that brick. But no balls

44:44 hard as it feels like a sweatshing. In my own world, I found

44:47 myself often they tell me stop by saying we just started. Might ove my

44:52 mind, but keeth with my heart starving. I ain't eat a bit up

44:55 in a minute. But I treated like them Papa and ate away watch and

45:00 it's just trying to reach limits that I never said. I go. Can't

45:02 stop. Chris Wallace, we kick dose ten toes and get do a line.

45:07 No this ain't no William not in ten do drap me Tom fix and

45:12 we giving out good do. I will not stop. You will have to

45:15 come micro. We ain't gonna lose this win. A circle working for the

45:20 bill Board in the night commercial, working that a pottom in check. Wait,

45:23 let me take a breath, Wait wi up next. We ain't gonna

45:28 lose this win. A circle working for the bill Board in the night commercial

45:31 workit that a put am in check. Wait, let me take a breath,

45:36 Wait will up next? It's hope, I'm with the bard Man God

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