Matt Connarton Unleashed: Ajuzel Da Rebel

0:00 Hello, how's it going? Hey? How do you say you're I don't know how to pronounce your name. It's okay, I was sure. A rebel is here. Welcome and uh, we do have a few of your tracks here. Why don't we play something and then we'll talk for a bit. What do you You sent us three and I made radio edits of of all three of them. Uh. So we do have options, But what would be a good one to open with and then we'll come back and talk about it? Either let me done or what made me? What? Maybe is the one I did for my son's like a tribute song for them.

0:31 Oh, let's play that one first and then we can we can talk about that. Okay. So this is what made me a rebel. It doesn't roll off my tongue a lot of people. I'll get it though, I'll get it all right here. It is, this is, This is called what made me? Maybe? Don't cry, Maybe, don't cry no more. I'm so sorry that I left you standing in the tude outside. I hope you know yours you my and it's it's you, baby. I can't even sleep it you. I cannot replace this, No one can replace you. I'm empty. You come crazy.

1:21 I remember when I used to standing her in hardcore, but I feel like get cold. I don't remember when I had no money. You know, I am not sure that the cry I had them enough for the best. Wiping my tears, I can be like the rest deep down inside of the press. I remember them comes up with last shout because my son I was hurting. Yeah, I ain't want to live no more, trying to battle my demons and lost myself. I put my whole family to paint. I know that they love me, but I push them away. But I don't know what's wrong with me.

2:05 Demons they calling me all that's my sunny. It was part of me? Can say goodbye? What's on me? I left my head out, living with grand now and I don't know what's wrong with me. Demons they calling me? That's my sunny? Was part of me. Can't say goodbody, what's on me? I left my head out. I'm living a grand out, y'all. Y'all, I had no way to tell people that my life isn't safe. I wanted to in my own life the chosen better. I put my pain in every ball because music's my escape. I said, all alone and praying ho for better days.

2:42 But God bless me with three more sons. I feel like I'm never running front of pain right now? I know and if you know right now because right now I'm a better man back then and understand because right now you know what? God, please don't understand right now why you have to go take come away and all this pande I haven't done right now. I have to live through the worst all again. But right now, while I'm stronger to see him longer, that's my little Julian. I feel like a fool again. I ain't get to see him grow up, turn to a bigger man.

3:16 I feel like you hate me. God, Please don't let me fall again. Why do I feel like you hear men? Be crazy? You took too for my babies. My heart is fably and what am I supposed right now? I think I need saying me? Why you am mighty? Holding on? I lost too one my babies, and I know that's impossible, but I dream of miracles to get my boys right back to me. Right in Mom's that spiriture, I feel it on again. I wish I can't hold my boys again. Yeah, baby, don't cry, Baby, don't cry no more I'm so sorry that I left you standing in the food outside.

3:56 I hope you know I'm yours your mind. It's maybe I can't even steep it you. I cannot replace, no one can replace you. That is a Josel Am I saying it right. Ay, Josel the Rebel here on Matt connorson Unleashed on this Saturday morning. Uh, he's here with Jenny and I in The track is called what Made Me, and that is the as we were discussing off air. That is the first time that's been played on the Radio World Radio Premiere. So we're very uh, very happy to play that. And that is you were saying too that, Uh, that song has kind of been blown up for you.

4:37 You've been getting a lot of a lot of attention with that. Yeah, I've been getting a lot of attention with that. Done like a competition in Holy Oak Mess it was, and uh, I guess the competition was for to be able to go down to Atlantic Records. Oh. I battled like thirty nine other artists. When I went down there, I showcased another song and then I did that song and I pulled a lot of heart strings and ended up winning. Yeah, Grass and then the Thursday after that, I ended up going down to Atlantic Records.

5:07 Talked to Bailey the n R from Atlantic Records. Oh wow, that was the first song I played for her too, and she liked it. Oh no kidding, you'll put her like I mean. She told me to bring like seven songs and I bring like eleven just in case, like seventeen songs just in case, and I ended up playing eleven for her. She wanted to keep listening to more songs. Oh no kidding, that's excellent. So it's really it was actually really good. Good experience too. It is my first time going to New York City, first time experiencing all the traffic, and yeah, yeah, crazy, it was crazy.

5:31 Do you have to get in the cab? No, I actually drove down there. I had to pay sixty five dollars for parking at the drive crazy man four hours paid sixty five dollars for parking. And then yeah, I don't know. I think you actually you're probably better off that way. Last time I was there and I have to take a taxi, I thought I was gonna die. I'd rather take a taxi. Yeah, I take taxi? Were you were you nervous? Saw dude. Yeah, that's a big deal. Or you have to go over the tappan Zee Bridge. What is it?

6:00 The giant bridge that George Washington Bridge. I think, Oh, I don't know if they renamed I think they call it. I think they Yeah, I think they did rename it. I think they did rename it. Yeah, it's a scary bridge. Yeah. So, uh, the song we should talk about is this song is very personal to you, very personal? Yes, yeah, we should. We should talk about it. I mean it's a it's a heavy subject obviously, but yeah, we should talk about this first. Yeah. So in twenty eighteen, I had my firstborn son. His name is Jaden.

6:33 He lasted about two months. He ended up passing away from SIDS. Yeah, and for anyone who doesn't know, SIDS is a sudden infant death syndrome, also often referred to as crib death. And uh, and I believe it's kind of a mystery, right that. Yeah, they still don't know, They still don't know. Nobody really knows why it happens. Yeah, Oh that's horrible. So two months, so sorry for you. Two months, Yeah, two months he made it. He passed away in October. October twelfth. It was so he was born August eighth, August seventh, and then he passed away October twelfth.

7:09 Wow, And that's where it really put me into a dark place, dark hole, no doubt. That's the reason why I started rapping making music. Yeah, because before I was like making music and it wasn't wasn't anything serious. Yeah, my dad would like put me in the studio and all that stuff. When I was like thirteen, it used to be a DJ and my mom used to listen to like Spanish music and always dancing and doing all that stuff. But yeah, so I got through that. It was in my dark place started making music. I made a couple of songs about my son's It was like at first there were like anger anger songs, Yeah, and then I finally came to a compromise and made this song.

7:50 I was like really stuck on it. Yeah, I got the first half. So the first half of that song is about my son Jayden, and then I got stuck. So that part where it goes, God, please don't understand right now, why'd you have to go take him away? So that's that part is where I got stuck. And that song and then literally right after that, my fourth son that was born. His name is Julian. He made it about four months twenty days and he passed away from SIDS too as well. Oh my god, oh right there. I was able to finish the song.

8:23 I know that's not really good circumstances, but I was able to finish the song that way. Yeah, making a song and sent it out to all my people, sent it all to my friends and they were like, Yo, that song is crazy, dude. Yeah yeah, and stuff like that. Yeah, you know, I just went and finished the song, and so I kind of it's like a tribute song for them, Like you know what I mean, They're not alive here, but they're alive in my music. Yeah. Yeah, and I'm happy to go around the world to like perform that song.

8:50 Yeah. I mean, it comes up on the show a lot, you know, conversations about taking traumatic events and you know, some of the horrible things that happened and trying to create art of it. And not only because not only does it help you to work through it, it's it's kind of like a therapy right when you do that, but also too, you know, it might help others who have gone through similar things. And I don't know any of the numbers on SIDS. But I know it's I've known people who it's happened to, and it's uh.

9:17 I don't have any children, but I can only imagine how horrible that is to experience that. You you have other kids, Yes, I have two middle children. Okay. Jamil is my rainbow baby, who was right after my firstborn. Yeah, so, I mean he didn't really get to love that we were supposed to give him. Yeah right now he's good. Yeah. Yeah. And then I had my son Elijah, yeah yeah, and my son Jamil is about to be four on the twenty fourth. And then oh wow, okay, very good, very good. You mentioned two. Your dad?

9:53 Is your dad a musician? Oh he's a DJ. Yeah yeah, yeah, DJ old school three g yeah yeah, goes by mister old school now. Yeah, he's just like local local DJ. Yeah. Yeah. He used to go to Rhode Island DJ down there. It's good old school DJ plays all the old school gyms, all that stuff. Does he still do it? Yeah, he's handicapped now from diabetes both legs, but he's still You had another gig, I think it was the eighth, June eighth, and he went down there. I said, it was good. Yeah, put all the music for them, you know, handicapping all he still does.

10:26 He still works on cars, he still does it. Good for him. Yeah, yeah, that's awesome, good for him. So is that where your your interest in music started? Yeah? When I was about thirteen, he'd always tried to get me down to the basement because he had all his friends down there, DJ and and he would do some recording stuff like that, and I'd go down there and watch and he's like, yo, son, go on your turn. I'm not doing that. I don't wrap, bro, like I don't wrap. Yeah, and then I don't know, eventually that caved.

10:54 Yeah, and I did like a cover song for like for T Pain, I'm sprung o kidd, I like a cover song, and he was like, see, I told you could do it. Yeah. And ever since then, I started like making the little rhymes on my phone and stuff like that and nice. But it never got serious. It never got serious like that. Yeah. It wasn't until five years ago until I started making music seriously. Yeah. Yeah. And now you have you done shows with Hope the rapper? How do you guys know each other? I've done Hope since high school?

11:24 Oh no, okaidd Yeah, oh wow since high school. Oh cool, I have done shows with him where he's on a different set, he's has his own sets things like that. Yeah, but yeah, he's a really good musician. Shout out to George. You know what I mean. He's good. Yeah, we actually have a song coming together. Oh you do a song. Yeah, we're doing a song. I just gotta find the time actually going down to LA to do a tour. Oh yeah, it's a four day tour from the twenty six to the thirtieth BT weekend. We're doing that excellent.

11:54 Well, you know you can come when you're ready to radio release that. Yes, yes, we love the world We love doing the world premieres here. Yeah, we're doing uh, as you're probably aware, we open today with Winter Circle, his newest single. Because I haven't heard that yet. Yeah, yeah, we'll play it again too, uh at the end of the hour. But yeah, because we're doing uh, you know, he's releasing ten ten new singles each week and we're doing uh, they're already they're already on the streaming services by the time we plan.

12:23 But we we're doing the world radio premieres of each one each week. So yeah, we really are Oh yeah, yeah, no, we love that and and he's he's amazing. We had a great conversation when he was here. And I really like the positivity of his music. And yeah, he has really good positivity in his music. He keeps he like, like less swears and stuff. That's why like his music keeps you like, no swears and stuff like I kind of keep it like you know, yeah, I'm just me on it, you know, I mean, yeah, it took me a few minutes to do those radio eds.

12:50 Yeah, let me let me down, let me down. Yeah, there's a lot of nwords in there, but yeah that was what he said, a lot of nwards on there. But you know what I mean, yea

13:00 be an original rapper, fos and just me that's normally the way I talk all the time. Took Yeah, it took me a few No, I don't mind, No, I don't mind. But you now have radio and it was worth it. Yeah yeah I can send those yeah yeah absolutely, yeah, absolutely, Well let's let's play another one. What should we? Uh? Let me Down as actually my biggest hit on oh on Spotify. I think it's almost at one hundred k streams. Oh okay, it's like ninety eight hundred something. I don't know. I actually I haven't checked today.

13:26 I haven't checked today. It might be one that might be that. If not, we'll get it over the top, right, Yeah, Yeah, that's awesome. Yeah all right, let's while you're looking that up, we'll go and play this. So this is uh, this is a Josel said it right, Yeah, features you did it al rebel and uh. And this is called uh, this is called let me down. Check it out. Give me no, I will hear them. Give me now. I stay by my dog and let it when I don't come around because me while you have to let me down. Now, I'm loving fun.

14:12 Why you're thinking number clown got you? It was my home and you know I peeved it. I could tell if me singing to me, chop and hit him. Now we bidding pull up on me. You know I'm twigging. You have to let me down. That's why I don't come around. Because they get older of it, like they can be complicated. Most they can say, they don't show what they're staying. It's heart I trust. When you're on circle betrayed, you know they get letting them traps. Keep by the night you know they get letting wing them trappers.

14:42 Keep by the night

14:45 now, Monro, I ain't never coming home. Get the back. I got a call. I tell you wanting me alone while you're blowing on my phone. Why are you blowing on my phone? You're coming at me? Watch your tone. You're coming at me. You watch your tone. Don't you say you feel path me? Look out what you started? I'm gonna go over got it? Get started in my problem. Why y'all going down on me? I guess I gotta go hard and you know tragedy just hit them spinning magic. I got it. I don't hear them get me now. I stay by my dog and letting in the swide.

15:18 I don't come around cause us feding me while you have to let me down. Now, I'm loving fo because you're thinking number clown gotch was my home and you know what peeved it. I could tell them singing me trying to hit him. Now we beating pull up on me. You know I'm twigging. You have to let me down. That's why I don't come around. I don't know what happen that people around me, or why they keep switching and choosing the side. Always been true to myself. Being true to myself it got me to lose in my mind.

15:49 Homies been faking, they moving too funny. I don't know love me that you're trying to play me in. I don't know why I'm going so crazy. I don't have the time, like why, why why are you acting? Thank God that's catchy, buy my lonely while I stay my grind. I'm stuck in my head from losing some friends, been dealing with pain. I hope that it is if I never pop, won't see me again. It goes to the shadow can see through a line, and I don't know why drive in my head sometimes with search a for truth. The luck of his life can switch up the past because I'm across time, can switch up the pace because I want my grind, because I want my grind now I don't have the time.

16:24 No, no, no for them, get me. No. I stay by my dolling give me. That's why I don't come around looking just fading me while you have to let me down. Now I'm look getting falled against it. Why you're thinking number clown? Gotcha? It's my home and you know what pod I could tell a singing game chump and hit him. Now we beating. Pull up on me. You know I'm tweaking. You have to let me down. That's why I don't come around clicking, feding me stay step. That is let me down. That is a joosel rebel. I'm getting confident with that.

17:12 Yeah yeah, yeah, that was really good. Better than most people. Yeah, yeah, the most people. Where does the name come from? By the way, Actually my dad gave me that name. My dad name my uncle Tom oh kidding me? Yeah, oh cool. My uncle told me to mess around like like just you know, a j a ji a joos and then like they stuck, like they just start calling me that, and I'm like, you know what I mean. And then when I was trying to make my rap name, that's what you want to make your rap name? I don't know, and we already call you that, and it's like all right, it's like yeah, it's unique.

17:41 Nobody has that, so I guess perfect. I mean, yeah, yeah, yeah, that's awesome. Uh yeah, he is here with us, of course, live in studio on this Saturday morning, and which so you were looking up, Uh what made me is is that the one that's almost two hundred thousand no, no, let me down. Let me down is okay, Yeah, I just released h what made me? Oh? Okay yeah, so let me down and that'll be crossing that that barrier today probably one hundred k. Go go listen to it on Spotify, not right now, in a little bit.

18:15 Yeah yeah, yeah, jack that number up. Let's get them over the top today. Yeah yeah. Yeah. We were kind of talking off air about how hard that is and how Spotify now is like they're not they're not paying people for any songs under a thousands. Yeah, yeah, which I don't agree with that at all, a lot of people are complaining about it. But the only thing is it's yeah, I mean you're talking about pennies. I don't care. They pay like fraction of a penny. I don't care. Yeah, well they don't pay enough number one, But I don't care.

18:45 It's still your song, it's still your revenue that that you're making for them, and they're keeping it whatever, penny, quarter, a penny whatever, they're keeping it. Yeah, and they're ripping off artists by going, oh, you have to have this minimum of a thousand play, nobody gets paid except us until then. No, I think it's a ripoff. I think it's doing artists wrong. I'm really not. I'm not a fan of Spotify because of these things. Well, Apple Music's like fraction of pennies too, Yeah, it's ridiculous.

19:12 The one that pays the most is title. Title pays a penny for stream and it doesn't seem like much, but that's it's a lot more than zero points. There was zero three, right, Spotify pays and then apples zero points there's zero eight. Yeah. Yeah, it's so hard for artists to make money. These I think part of why people are getting back into records even I've seen they said last year records so outsold CDs. Really, I wonder how it compares in regards to streaming though. I mean, I think artists make more on an album than they do on streaming any day of the week.

19:44 It's really you You're you're making most of your money off of your merchandise. Yeah, yeah, I have a merchan pade too. Yeah. Yeah, it's spring familiar with that. Yeah. Use it's like digital right now. Yeah. I made it because you know, I figured i'd get something out there, right right. I mean I got at a couple of tests, sweatshirts and stuff like that. Oh cool, I write them to the shows. People say where do you get those from show website and stuff like that. Excellent, excellent. You were talking too off air about when you do what made me live and what goes into that?

20:21 Oh, because in that it's it's a good stage performance. Uh. I have these two canvases of my two boys yea, and I have either my fiance and my sister hold hold one of them on each side. And then you know, every time I performed this song, they have a visual of my of my son. So that makes the performance even even better. And people are just quiet and they're focused. Yeah, like everybody in the room is everybody's tensions on me. Like nobody's talking to each other. It's like people's cameras are out, people's flash lights are out right.

20:53 I mean, I just did a show in New York. Every show I go to, I do that song. Yeah. I don't like to do the same venue. I don't like to do the same venue and do the same songs, So I did different songs if it's the same venue. Yeah. But I just recently did a show, So I won the show in Holyoak, went down to Atlantic Records, did that and then I went down to Rhode Island. I did another competition, another battling another forty or another thirty nine artists. I was actually the first set on Rhode Island is where I was born and raised till I was nine years old.

21:23 I came out here. So when I went to Hord Island, I had like so many people that showed up, Like so, I had like at least thirty people that showed up. So the venue only held like seventy something people. Oh really, I had thirty of them. Yeah. So the competition was for five hundred dollars and then whoever bring the most people got another one hundred, two hundred dollars. So I went there. You know, I did two other songs. I did let Me Down, and I did another song called Bombshell It's not ready, It's not ready for radio.

21:52 Yeah, And then I did What made Me I always close with that song. Yeah. The song, it's like my song I'm originally there to do. I'm originally there to do that. I'm out here for my sons. I wouldn't be out here wait, if it wasn't for them, it wouldn't be rapping. Yeah, out here doing that and it's got me to many places. Yeah, I mean I'm heading to LA. I just went to New York opened for Connie Diamond the performance out there. I won the five hundred dollars, actually won seven hundred dollars. That's awesome, and that's what keeps opening more opportunities every time I win these competitions, more people.

22:22 He asked me, Yo, you want to come. I was supposed to go do the Three Headed Goat with Charlie Clips. I think George is doing that too, but I'm not gonna be able to make that. Oh okay. He wanted to do a new song that we're doing. Yeah, I just haven't found the time to get my song recorded yet. Oh okay, okay, I've been really busy with LA stuff. Yea. Yeah, my first time going to La away. Yeah, living five days, Yeah, like another world. I hear it's like walking into another world. Yeah yeah, and it's going to be hot.

22:51 Yeah. I'm taking my first flight, my first time taking an airplane really. Yeah, first time ever born an airplane or anything. So I'm nervous about that too, first time being away from everybody. I'm not gonna have anybody I know out there for my man, You've got everybody you know right in your hand. I know, but it's just it's different. Especially it's gonna be my first time performing that song without none of my regular people that usually show up to my shows. Yeah, so I'm gonna be doing these these songs in front of strangers, you know what I mean?

23:19 Yeah, that's what makes me. It's making me more nervous too as well. Yeah, rose to you, that takes a lot to have the courage is that I have cross the country. I'm happy that I have one person with me, at least that I know, my manager, you know what I mean. I have one person that's coming with me. You'll make new friends while i'll there. You'll come home with more than you had. Yeah. That's everybody keeps saying. Rex Shattuck is in the Facebook live chat. Hello, that's a new name in there, sat.

23:45 Yeah, that's my fiance. Are there? Oh I misread that back, Shaduck. I'm sorry, Yes, very good, very good. By the way, where do you record? I recorded sound Shuttle. It's in Boxford Masks seven engineers. Name is Nikky Stix. Ever since I linked up with him, it's been really good. He knows my sound now like I get there. What I do is I record at my house. I get it memorized, you know what I mean, I already have it, don what I want for autotune or yeah, you know, so you kind of make a demo. Yeah. So when I get there, it's already in my head.

24:21 I'm able to do two three songs and a two hour time spen. Oh really paying for last time I did four songs in a two hour session. I mean, I get there, get the songs according and I just let the engineer do his work. He already knows my sound and then the only thing he has to mess with is my features. You know what I mean, feature songs. I do have a solo album coming out pretty soon, but I have a feature album coming out hopefully when I come back from LA. I'm trying to get that situated. Now. For those who don't know, can you explain what that is when you talk about features?

24:50 Oh? Features just another persson on another artist on your song. So the feature album is people that's part of my group. So I have another one with good Bars and Hope the rapper. We got to get those songs recorded in order for me to drop my album because I wanted to get them on there. Yeah, so that song that me and Hope we're doing, that's going on there, and then the song with Me and Good Bars is going on there. Excellent, I think, oh yeah, yeah, he's been on the show. Well he actually he was on a couple of times when he was still in Sepsis.

25:17 Yeah yeah, I think he left steps Yeah he did. Yeah, yeah, and then he's coming on soon, right. I think we have him in July. I think it's July. Just double check the calendar. I'm looking yeah, I'm looking forward to to, uh, talking to him. He will be here on July sixth, Yeah, studio because when he was here with Sepsis, obviously you know, they were talking about band stuff. But I'm also looking really looking forward to talking to him just because he's he works with so many people. Yeah, he's also a good rappers too.

25:47 Yeah, yeah, good rappers too. Uh. He actually kind of paved the way it goes to studios. I used to go to his studio a long time ago. Actually did my first music video, oh no kidding, Yeah, the songs called now you know Okay. Yeah, it was the first music video I've did. Me and Good Bars are in there. He recorded it he edited all that stuff? Is is that on YouTube? That's on YouTube? Yes, okay, it's an old one, but yeah, people still go. I know a lot of kids they going there and they're like, yeah, they singing.

26:15 Now you know the song is old, excellent song. No, that's good though, I mean it's timeless. That's that's really good. So now the what's his name again? The producer that you work with, ni okay? Does he spell like the guy from Ali Crue Nikki six? Uh? Well, anyway, I assume it's not the same guy. But no, but it sounds like so is he? So he doesn't just engineer, he actually produces. He produces. Yeah, he plays like the actual instruments and no kidding, he doesn't do the beats I haven't gotten. I have gotten two beats from him, but I haven't used him yet.

26:49 I got the full exclusive rights from him. I'm just waiting. I'm trying to come up with a perfect song for those beats. But usually, like YouTube beats, I go buy them, you know, I'll go, I don't know they for some reason. My whenever I'm thinking, so I beat pops up and I'm just like, oh I like that one. Yeah, I don't even have to really look for beats because I feel like my phone is always reading what I'm thinking. Yeah, I go on there and I go to YouTube and like the first couple of beats, I look at it and like, like those ones, let's go go on their beat stars and I'll just pay for the pay for the beat.

27:21 That's usually how more of a melodic artists like to gravitated towards a lootic wave. Listened to like a Buggie with the hoodie apology, well's my favorite artist. I used to listen to some old school rappers like uh, Lil Wayne and you know jay Z and all that stuff. Yeah, not really a big fan of the old school of the old school wave. Dad growing up was like hard on the fifty cent, hard on fifty cent, So I kind of like, you know what I mean, that's music. Ah, Whenever I think of fifty cent, uh, this is a little bit of a side street.

27:55 But whenever I think of a fifty cent I think of the first time I ever heard in the club and I was and I was in the car and I heard it, and the first time I heard it, I really really liked it. I thought, Wow, it's really catchy. It was gonna be a huge hit, and literally I think it was the second or third time I heard it, I was like, I really don't like this. I was, I was, I was just over it so fast. I don't know. That's just the first thing I ever think that I think of. I think of his the feud that he had with Jule, which was, yeah, like a song by Jewelul in New York.

28:29 The song goes Hard actually made another song. I've cover a couple more songs that are that are unfinished through my solo album. I kind of, uh, I guess Swagger jacked a little bit of his of his flow, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, go from New York. I kind of like stole a little bit of that, but I put it in my own. Yeah. Yeah, I'm just waiting to get that out. Do you have any kind of an e t A on the solo album? Do you know what I have? This feature album I'm supposed to it's supposed to have already out, Oh, the future album's coming.

29:01 First feature albums comes first, which is why when I come back from LA, my first priority is getting the photo shoot done and then getting those songs recorded with mister Goodbars and Hope the rapper. Yeah, yeah, should be all set, yeah cool, should be all set and then it's gonna I should be up by hopefully August, No, say no, I don't know, probably like next month. The tracks that we're hearing today, are these not the future album but the solo album? Are these all let Me Down? Let Me Down's going on there?

29:32 Yes, okay Down's going on there? And then reminiscing and what made Me's gonna go on my solo album? Oh? Okay, cool, cool, excellent, excellent. Are you doing any shows? Do you have any shows around here in the area coming up? Or you got other stuff you're focused on? I know, but the La one. I have a show that the twenty seventh and the twenty ninth that are a part of Mia Snow's tour that she's doing. I'm actually going with Scott Morris. He's doing that the show I won in Rhode Island. He's the one that asked me.

30:02 He goes you know, I called him, he goes ya like your music. He's like, have you ever performed out of New England? Yeah? And I was like, no, I've just done like Mass, different parts of Mass for Island stuff like that. Yeah, and he's like, you know, he's like, what you doing come on to to LA And I was sick. He's like, yeah, everything's gonna be up out of pocket because you're not sound artists yet, so everything's out of pocket. Everything's paid to play, seems to know, if you can afford. I was like, yeah, I got you.

30:27 Yeah, you know. Then that's how we came to that. So four days, nice, four days. This is awesome for you. I'm really excited for seventh. The twenty seventh, I'm doing the show

30:40 and I think it's North Hollywood, and then at the twenty nine I have another one. But in between this podcast and stuff like that. Yeah yeah, yeah, you got to make the most of the trip, right Yeah. Well yeah, I'm just following. He's leading the way I'm following. Yeah. No, that's cool. It's cool that. And I feel like, I don't know, I've always felt like I see it a little bit more in hip hop that I mean, you see it in all genres, but mentorship is so important when there's when there's people who see something in you, who are willing to help you, you know, instead of just saying, you know, oh this guy's got all this talent, but I'm just gonna let him know about Scott Morris.

31:21 Like he just took me on. He asked me what I can afford. I told him what I can afford, and he's like, all right, boom, send me all the paperwork. Yeah, I think I need to fill out everything's legit. Yeah, yeah, wow, that's good. I had to book my flight. I thought we were driving down there on oh really a day day. It was like a one day, twenty four hours. I was like, wow, it's a long drive. And then if I figured out when he sent me the the forums, oh a fight. Yeah. Yeah, So you've never flown? Never flown?

31:49 Are you flying out of Manchester or Boston Austin? Yeah, I can give you some tips. I fly a lot. You do, I too, I know I've been. I was always asking a run. I was asked and around like that's my bosses. I was asking a lot of people that's flown. Nick couldn't really give me anything. They said, just make sure you're there early. Yeah. I think I'm like three hours or three weeks away from my next trip something like that. Minnesota. Oh okay, I've never been there either. Yeah. The important thing is to get there, you know, get to the airport early and just to be super organized early.

32:21 It needs to be like, what a couple hours. Yeah, I'd get there at least two hours early. Yeah. I have no idea where the terminals are. Nothing. Yeah, well, chat, I'll help you, because to me, that's the stressful part about flying is dealing with Like, it's not the being in the big metal tube twenty thousand feet in the air of that part so easy. It's it's just dealing with the airport past security on all right. That's that's where the stress is, right in my opinion. Yeah, I had to figure out what size the bag is you can bring so oh yeah, I paid for a check bag.

32:54 Then I figured out that the the carry on bag was supposed to be twenty two inches, and I was like, I could have fit everything in there. Oh, but I already paid for the check bag. So I got the big luggage. Yeah, it's going to pack my stuff? Yeah yeah, get my clothes ready. I know they're going to LA So I got to watch out for colors down there. Yeah, I did not know that. Yeah, especially in the rap game, you gotta just watch out for your colors. Out there, especially no red and blue. That's where like bloods and crips originated from it, Like, don't wear anything that makes sense, Like you know, you don't want to go out there wearing I mean, my favorite color is blue.

33:26 I have outfits that are blue and reddy. But yeah, not going to bring those colors down there. That makes wear like more neutral colors, you know what I mean, like purple yellow, and that never would have occurred to me, but that totally makes sense. Yeah, yeah, I don't want anybody taking me right

33:42 certain type of way, you know what I mean in star trouble, Yeah, exactly, I'm down there to start trouble. No, that's not something you need. No God, can you imagine someone in the crowd like, oh, this guy's I'm not ready for all that. No Wight here for five days. Hope that opens up a lot more opportunities. Yeah, I can't. I can't imagine what it's like to lose a child. That's not something that I can imagine. But I am absolutely amazed by you and your ability to have taken this tragedy that actually incited this mass creativity inside of you that's just coming out of you in such a positive energy.

34:21 It's just really commendable. It really is. His birthday is coming up next month, no kidding the last six ye his birthday's going to be one years old. Wow. So yeah, this past month, you know, I've been a little bit depressed. But yeah, like then it's like some you know, some days I'm like, I don't want to go to LA you know what I mean. Yeah, I already booked my flight, you know what I mean. Yeah, Yeah, already book my flight. Some days I just want to be like I don't want to make music. Yeah, I'm still there and what I got to do, Yeah, still being a father to my kids.

34:49 Yeah, I mean I'm there. There's probably a lot of father's out there that you'll help them. Yeah. Yeah that the song did blow up really fast. Yeah, it's actually that's where I'm going to La you know, yeah song, Yeah down there. I want to go perform the song down there. I talked to some people down there, like uh, and they were like, the didn't even know what SIDS was. Really, Yeah, I didn't even know what was. I'm like, oh, it's this. I'm like, it's sudden infandeth intrum. It's like the baby's brains pretty much tells them to stop breathing or yeah, they say it can happen on your on the baby's stomach or the baby's back, but it happened on both.

35:24 So my firstborn was on the stomach, my my and my son Julian was on his back. So yeah, Jenny was looking up up numbers. Really, any out of one hundred thousand children born thirty eight point four will die from said, there's roughly twenty five hundred babies that die every year from sudden infant death syndrome. And these numbers are coming from March of twenty twenty three. So, I mean, it is rare, but you know, there's there's enough of a number there that you know, but the theory is still out.

35:54 We haven't we haven't pinpointed it down. Nobody knows. I don't find my money's on something genetic that maybe haven't pinpointed yet. Yeah, maybe they'll when they do the gena testing on it. Maybe they could find something. Yeah it's a gene or something, because it didn't happen to us twice, so right right, yeah, maybe they'll find something, could be something there. But yeah, so statistically it's rare, but it's more common than most people realize. Yeah, twenty five hundred children dying a year is a is a decent number.

36:22 Yeah yeah, and they just don't know why yet. It's just it's all it's been a medical mystery that just hasn't been unraveled yet. Hopefully, if science grows and genetic and all that kind of thing happens, you know, we'll find a reason be able to stop it. What you're doing is phenomenal because you are raising awareness, you are bringing attention to it. The next year, I wanted to do like a sid's awareness tour free, you know what I mean. That's a great idea. Wanted to do like, you know, free tour, you know what I mean.

36:53 Actually have my mom's ex fiance, Uh he's he's the one that printed up like to think everything for that and I actually really liked it when he printed that up for me, and I was like, yeah, that actually sounds really good, like you know, for SIDS awareness and that's good. You know, a free tour yep, don't get to nobody has to pay nothing, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, go there, set up the venues. But I just got to make a couple more songs. Yeah, that sounds amazing. You'll definitely have to come back and tell our audience about it.

37:21 Yeah, I mean, and then I just always gonna have my team open up for me do whatever you know PG songs, you know. Yeah, I hope the rap will be good. Yeah yeah, autely looking like mean and trying to do like shows are mean and like a local tour, you know what I mean, not where it's too far. Yeah. Yeah, so that everybody can make it and everybody works, everybody has their own schedules. So we're gonna just get that situated. Yep. You might even be able to get the March of Dimes involved. Oh yeah, good call possibility.

37:50 Yep, yeah, that makes sense. That makes sense. Well we are we are approaching the top of the hour. I want to make sure we get one more of your your tracks and uh so we're what's the one we didn't play? Reminiscent Reminiscent? Yeah, so that's a song. It was about when my mom was in her dark days. My mom was in her dark days. It's the beginning of it, and then it's about like New Hampshire and how people like did you dirty? People? Did me dirty? It happened forever let Me Down was about Okay, yeah, I kind of got that from the lyrics.

38:21 Yeah yeah. And I think there's people's that was closest to my circle that let me down, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, I'm just tired of that. Very relatable. We we certainly all had that. We certainly all have had that happen. Yeah, trying to make sure I have it here. So what we'll do is, yeah, we'll play that, and then after that too, I'm gonna I'm gonna play again the Winter Circle, the brand new track from Hope the Rapper as we continue our ten weeks of world radio premieres of Hope the Rapper singles, which we're very happy about.

38:50 Love his stuff and love what you're doing. Man, this is great, This is great. A j Usel the Rebel. What should people know about how to find you online? Uh? I mean everything. We should spell a j u s D E L D A R E b E l and you can find me on every platform and please go to Spotify, Spotify. We got to get that over, get that up. Yeah, yeah, one hundred k almost there. Yeah, I bet it happens today. Hopefully there's no hope, there's only no, something. Didn't you to say something like that, there is hope because he's on he's going to be playing after that.

39:28 There you go exactly, they're literally there. Literally is there? Literally is hope? Yes, and that too, all right A Josel the rebel, Thank you so much for coming in. Man, thank you. This is this has been great. And give this a listen. This is reminiscing. It was so crazy. You were never home so many nights that have felt the lung deep in the ductness. Had to get in my zone and they wish I can see you more. Not that I am grown anythink I don't love you, but I know that you're wrong and it's crazy.

40:15 You think that we was crazy and sing. We used to hanging every day with link, go to the stores, heat off for lunch, to go about everything. Your brother junior passing. Watch you drown yourself and your paint. Now new mission, that's a different sector. I'm here now trying to start collecting. Move to a different section. They hate because I'm upsetting one false move you better. I hope you have protection. There's no regret in my hands. Are forced to leave the weapon too much talking get you, so keep it stepping no cap Gate city with them repping.

40:39 I missed the mold day's force drive mail hunk go getting those with them days when they called you broke. Now where the day's them sayings again? That called you bro turned into a well you have to back when they need you, when it's your time keeping the stack. They'll see you now they be hating on me. I get greened like the eagles. I do the wish ladies. I do this fish for my peoples, straight facts moving forward. My time is that he yes, ain't got no tough fear back in for this like it's tennis.

41:03 I reinvented this new cod and laws invented and never sentenced. My song gone and reminisc and then that's time is taken like broken family, my friend day is but the press and broken. Now I'm back, let's get it. You're hurt. Twenty twenty. I got a tonnel vision because then the boots whereas against it, and don't you need to get it? Come from a herd they have a popup except Brodie locked up. I just kind of miss him. Now, you know Hampshire, you know how we live in Should I tell all my gus they can come from them transiers.

41:27 You know how we do to all my sisters, audition, proud of you, and long night sentence through Going hard is what I'm trying to do. These other rappers they know competition. No, you'll place no more propositions. It's not the quantum physics. You ain't gonna beat me. You know my position without the proper vision, they can't see her to go over their kitchen. Speak only when spoken to it. Because now what it is, If you're gonna make it, then you gotta be a humble dude. Don't let the devil get a holder.

41:50 You'll stop doing from what you're supposed to do. I'm moving to send you all this message in I hope you read it. Sure you decided me y'all wasn't seeing if y'all have strengthen I ain't want to believe me for y'all fight. You know, demons, they should be part of your weakness and make different choices of sious repeating. And that's the fact. Like that is again to put it into that. How come these again took up on the internet and never been into that have been a threat them shots fired with the missiles.

42:12 That man, you're greeting msn't like you to get man packet back. So y'all a history may I can lose. I need a victory, man, I can risk another injury with paying and stuff for in their misery. You're feeling me if it's my money, y'all and disagree if you ain't about that. Actually, all that talkings for the burns and siga physically, the energy that's rushing into me and f I'm gonna go, make the mistake and stand next to me, come step to me. You do me wrong, and y'all are dead to me, and with that fixure, you'll upsetting me my love for music, so it's meant to be.

42:38 I ain't gonna give up my goal ho for all my city, that's my destiny. Rest in peace, man, rest in peace? Should I tell my dad Homies National Ma Hampshire, I see you, Let's get it. I don't think they know it's really not default. I'm gonna need a minute, a minute, let's go. Who died it's hope. I'm with the pot Ron got back. I'm going Uncle Hunktoki I've gotten since he's got something of post twenty twenty Masco and I felt like pot man, pop mam. They just seem the same for nigros. They washed down the product and murdered out.

43:33 He broke sounds. The couture been bunched with e gooes like yay saying we just want the power to people and Pizzo. How they're holding the remote nowadays seems like the troupe the Sea fall on me though I'm a rebel for one cause this ball might set the middle of detect dogs. How she knowing is something like Brett fall. I'm gonna need a breath because you're going to the long yard. Heard you playing like Kevin and kt hard thinking i'mber Doe, so probably I'll hit pause, swing gon lose the swinter circle working for the bill Board in the night commercial art that'll put him in check.

44:08 Wait let me take him press. Wait way up next. We ain't gonna lose the swinter circle working for the bill Board in the night commercial for you, that'll put him in check. Wait let me take up breath, Wait way up next, Wait a second verse. You gonna need a nurse soldier boy, tell us it in that we did a first hold a noise because this is gonna hit him. Wear hurts Polo boids. We got a rally starry to bring this darn we gonna turn into a garden. Were not the same. I ain't like James Harden shoot four the stars and no you can't guard him.

44:41 I will not touch that brick. But no balls hard as it feels like a sweatshing. In my own world, I found myself often they tell me stop by saying we just started. Might ove my mind, but keeth with my heart starving. I ain't eat a bit up in a minute. But I treated like them Papa and ate away watch and it's just trying to reach limits that I never said. I go. Can't stop. Chris Wallace, we kick dose ten toes and get do a line. No this ain't no William not in ten do drap me Tom fix and we giving out good do.

45:13 I will not stop. You will have to come micro. We ain't gonna lose this win. A circle working for the bill Board in the night commercial, working that a pottom in check. Wait, let me take a breath, Wait wi up next. We ain't gonna lose this win. A circle working for the bill Board in the night commercial workit that a put am in check. Wait, let me take a breath, Wait will up next? It's hope, I'm with the bard Man God that I won Uncle Shuntoki Afghan and since it's got something gonna passed down twenty twenty mascot and I felt like Batman Man.

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